Ciara.o!

2011-11-23T08:08:00.000-08:00

You said you will be there for me when I'm down or when I needed someone but you didn't give a shit when I was feeling horrible and when I was lonely.

The ugly truth.

You literally shouted at me at my worst emotional condition and didn't even bother to ask me 'are you okay?'

You just left and ignored me.

How uglier can it be?

Where are you?

2011-09-09T10:16:00.001-07:00

It felt like forever since I wrote something here.

Life's been a bitch. I don't know what to share here anymore. I felt lifeless and miserable.

I don't know if its karma that hit me or its just a phase that everyone will go through but I know this is seriously one of the hardest phase I have been through.
Its been the toughest months and the days felt so long especially when I'm eager for the things that I want to happen. Obviously it didn't.

I was told that I'm living in an imaginary life.... and in denial. As much as it hurts, at the moment I feel comfortable being this way. I avoid talking about it, avoid mentioning about it, avoid answering questions about it and avoid myself from accepting the fact.

I just don't want to accept certain things yet. The truth is always ugly. I am not strong enough to face it yet. I am still looking for the courage. And I'm definitely learning. Learning how to love myself more and learn how to handle things correctly.
A gentle reminder that I always hear, I would like to share: Putting someone before yourself all the time is wrong.

Well of course, when there are downs, there are sure to be ups to compliment each other.

I just got back from Gold Coast. It was really a good trip, an escape for me to be precise to keep myself away from all the shit that I never welcomed.

A sneak peek from my trip :) More to come soon on facebook!

I've gained so much fats during this holiday. Mom is always cooking good stuff for dinner. But I don't blame her for that. I blame the weather for always raining in the evening! I couldn't do my jogging routine like how I used to back in uni.

Note to self: Work out at least three times a week! By hook or crook baby!

Semester is commencing next Monday. Hopefully it'll be a good one for us. Boy, time flies! I'm in senior year soon! It didn't feel like I've been there for two years at all. My first year memories are still so vivid! God I miss the lifestyle in uni. So much freedom and yet it takes so much of discipline to achieve the things that I want. Its really a good disciplinary practice. I can't wait to go back uni. I feel grown up there. And life is so colourful there. LOL. I totally didn't mean that I can't wait to grow up and get old. I just like the freedom I get and make decisions on my own in a lot of things that I do.

I know it's gonna be a challenging semester for me. I have new commitments and a lot of near future goals that I want to achieve. I pray hard everything will go smooth sailing and I'll be strong enough to go through whatever that may be an obstacle for me.

I'm gonna party hard and work even harder! :)

Ache

2011-08-19T03:48:00.000-07:00

Seeing your face, hearing your voice, answering your questions, hearing your stories, listening to you breathing, smelling your scent, feeling your touch...

It all felt like a knife striking right through my heart. Continuously.

Me eyes felt like there are a million blades cutting them.

BEACH!

2011-08-03T05:59:00.000-07:00

I never knew I love the beach so much.

I was wayyy to excited when we were heading there and I was smiling from ear to ear the whole time!

We did the parasail and jetski which is totally awesome pawsome and we were screaming most of the time! But our thighs hurt like shit while jet skiing, no joke it totally felt like sex on the beach.

Awesome group picture! :D

And thank you both of you girls for coming all the way to Penang to get excited together! :D

2011-08-01T09:54:00.000-07:00

The ones who love you will never leave, because even if there are a million reasons to let go, they will still find one single reason to hold on.

Period.

Gundah

2011-07-26T02:51:00.000-07:00

Its been a while since I last posted a picture online.

It's been a tough month for me.

Hope it'll be a better one for me next month.

Can't wait for the upcoming vacations!

Holding On

2011-06-27T06:07:00.001-07:00

Weak.

Slow.

Quiet.

Insomnia.

Scars.

Unproductive.

Unwanted.

Not needed.

Fake smiles.

Depression.

Helpless.

Distraught.

Unmotivated.

They all come with a face stained by tears all the time.

Faith

2011-06-25T21:46:00.000-07:00

I woke up without using the alarm clock today! It feel so good to sleep all I want until I've had enough but life doesn't allow me to do that everyday.

The moment I woke up I could smell the strong aroma of a baking cake I thought someone put a cake on my face =.='

Well....its not. It was actually my lady landlord who was baking cupcakes! She gave me some of the freshly baked cupcakes. How sweet of her :D

Freshly baked cupcakes for breakfast is totally awesome ok!

You know..

A lot of times I wish that a day will have 36 hours instead of 24. I wish time passes slower..

But for this point of time..I wish time passes faster. This month..is gonna be a horrible month for me :(

I just pray very very hard that things will be fine...and things will go back the same way how it used to be. I don't want to be in this situation now.

Losing something important is not a good feeling at all. I can't bear something so important to me to just walk off and leave. What am I gonna do?

I've put my very best.

I flew this bird away out of respect.

I just wish..this bird will come back to my arms someday when it is tired of flying.

That's what I'm asking for only.

I don't want anything more.

I want to hear those words again.

Only from you.

Please don't break this little heart of mine.

Just so you know..I took this picture when I was sad. I faked that smile.

Hennessy Artistry in Ipoh!

2011-06-15T21:19:00.000-07:00

So I was mentioning in my previous post about me attending Hennessy Artistry in Ipoh, guess its time to blog about it before it gets too outdated :)

The setting for the event was good as expected :) I had fun with my girls and I'm sure it will be one of our best memories together in Ipoh.

We had Hennessy all night long and I actually barely had more than 3 glasses because we were busy *ahem*taking pictures @.@

And and geez..the crowd was crazily fashionably late! We were already very late and our phones kept buzzing with people asking us why are we not there yet and surprisingly when we were there the place wasn't even crowded. It only started to get crowded after 12.30 am! Nocturnal much? :D

Point Blanc was performing singing his songs from his album. Not quite a fan but at least he managed to hype up the crowd :)
It was pretty much a picture taking night for us rather than a typical Friday clubbing night out. We were all so excited and seriously I think almost every single person attended took pictures because I observed that most people are busy with their cameras most of the time.

The registration booth outside barroom.

Not a pretty picture for me but the other two look in this picture! :)

Posing awkwardly at the registration counter =/

Look at Mr.Happy, Miss Albino and Me.

Miss Million Dollar Smile, as quoted from Amy Ho :D

The next one will be held in 69 Mansion, Penang.

Penangites, gear up yourselves and check out the next Hennessy Artistry!

Too bad bebeh is not around if not I will totally go with her!

It's coming...It's coming!

2011-06-02T19:11:00.000-07:00

Guess what's coming??

...

....

Hennessy Artistry- The Global Art Of Mixing is coming to Ipoh!

I am not sure if you have all heard about it but I'm gonna say it again. Hennessy Artistry is really coming to Ipoh!

For the very first time ever,

Hennessy Artistry is happening today TONIGHT, 3rd of June in Barroom, Ipoh! :D

With the great music and long Hennessy drinks all night long, I'm sure it will be one of the most exclusive happening events in Ipoh.

It's gonna be BIG, FUN and EXCITING! *excited mood turned on to the maximum*

Let us all brace ourselves and get ourselves ready for it!

Can't wait to see everyone there tonight! :D

I'm gonna enjoy sipping this baby tonight :D

Are you?

Internship!

2011-06-01T19:19:00.000-07:00

Now that I've finally settled down in Penang for my internship I guess its time for me to update my poor lil dead blog a bit.

I'm now working in komunikat.in and seriously this is the most relaxing work place ever. Before joining this organization I totally couldn't imagine how would it be like. I'm so glad its all fine and I'm so happy to be here! With funny, friendly and happy people around me it totally makes me a happier person day by day :D

I'm actually staying really near to my office, well as near as walking distance. It makes me lazy to drive to work because there's no place to park my car! There are cars everywhere down my office so if I were to drive I would have to walk a bit too. Well might as well I walk from home right? But the thing is..I get stuff like 'Hi sexayyyy goood morning!' that kinda thing and its not really comfortable =/

Work is fun I can say because I'm learning new things everyday. I hope there's more to come :)

Currently am working on the RSVP of the invitees to the event next week in KL which means I'll be at KL next week! Excited :D I'll be helping out in coordinating and at the same time becoming the usherette for the event. Hehehe.

Wait...i think i started this post at 10.30am and now its 6.30pm already! wtf.

Ciao. Blog soon!

2011-05-26T23:09:00.000-07:00

Come back to me will you? I cannot imagine myself losing you.

Please.

Sick

2011-05-13T10:02:00.000-07:00

I posted a new post yesterday and its gone. I'm very sure I published it but its really gone now. What happened?

Sigh. I had one of the worst days ever. I was fuck emotional the whole day.

So emotional that I felt like breaking down every single minute =/

But I couldn't when I was out and was working. Now that I'm alone...I just can't help it T.T

I have too many passive people around me which is really sad. I love to be around enthusiastic people and bubbly people who loves to talk as much as I do and like to share things. But when people around you are passive in a sense that they are close to you, but refuse to take part in things that you want to do with them together and are always closing ears to open conversations or folding arms to avoid becoming the one to initiate. Its really irritating and when that happens their sincerity becomes really ironic when they say "Lets do this or that" or "I wanna do this or that" but those are merely just words without meanings and are virtual wills. I don't like that!

I'm sick of being the backbone and I'm sick of initiating every time. I'm tired of being aggressive all the time.

Things have changed but I am living in denial. Why?

Now it seems that I am asking too much..I talk too much..I am more defensive..I am naggy whiny and a joy killer. Why it has become like this? and why when I am like this the listener often shut ears and walk off.

I'm no more the priority.

I'm no more the reason of everything that happens.

I'm no more the shoulder to lie on.

I'm no more the comfort zone...isn't it?

I can't believe I still want this after all that I've been through. FML!

On a brighter note, I celebrated Mother's Day with mom day after I got back from KL coz I was in KL during that weekend =/ *guilty* so lunch date with mama dearest it was!

bad lighting =/ but it wasn't burnt anyway haha. Lamb ribs-half slab.

ceasar salad.

Supermom and I!

Lets just wish for a better day tomorrow.

Weekend with the girlfriend

2011-05-11T21:43:00.000-07:00

Helloooo! *wavesss* [while munching on crackers with cheese and caviar for breakfast YUM!]

I'm finally on holidays! Not exactly..opps I was on holiday since last Tuesday. Sorry for the lack of updates again =/

Anyway I've been slacking a lot lately so I've decided to do something productive today! Hence, blogging it is!

I have a lot to share here hehehehehh

p/s: pictures bombing involved! :D

So I was back in Ipoh last Wednesday with my girl April because she decided to pay Ipoh a short visit..erm..as short as 12 hours? LOL. She gotta drive back all the way south alone thats why she had to make it day time thats why =/ [Apple you gotta come again real soon alright! I'm gonna feed you till you get bloated!]

As soon as a day after she left I went south to spend the weekend with her LOL so klang it was where I spent my weekend. I had so much fun for the weekend!

Been nom-ing bak kut teh everyday three days straight! Satisfied much! and the weekend was totally awesome where we did all the things that we like together :D

So as soon as I reached Klang, the gf brought me to have bak kut teh :D

then to Hani's place for a get-together dinner cum YK's birthday celebration!

Look at those colourful cupcakes Hani bought for us. So freggin cute right? <3

hehehehh

Close up. Look at them its so tiny and so colourful. You can imagine the size by comparing them with my fingers :D Cuteness.

After party after that of course! at the very nostalgic place of ours, Gsix @ The Gardens Midvalley :D

with Lester and Vivian. Gosh after so long!

excuse my drunk face alright =/

The next day we went to i-city! Like after so long hearing bout this place I finally got a chance to visit :D Its so prettyyyy and the lights were uhhhmazinggg :D

so prettyy rightt? holymama!

Apple :D

Holycowsss!

and thats a real pony!

Well there are more pictures in facebook if you wana see more :D

Blog soon!

xoxo,

Ciara

S for satisfaction

2011-04-17T07:58:00.000-07:00

Nyaaaa I'm so sorry for the hiatus again and as promised here are more pictures from Communication Night 2011 :D There are more in my facebook anyway.

Here's a full body picture of my. Credits to Apple!

With the Prom Princess! <3

This girl so freggin pretty right!

My awesome senior! :D

And my awesome lecturer whose favourite song is 'So What' by Pink! LOL

My favourite girls in Uni! <3

I've been lazy+busy lately. Yeah you didn't got me wrong...busy yet lazy hence here comes unproductive days. Its study week now but I've been doing the least revision I could. Yeah no effort =/ I gotta kick my ass to stop procrastinating tomorrow onwards! *promises self*

So I am now an AIESEC member and as a newbie we had to organize Team Day to let us, the Project Management team, to bond. So we went for paintball as it was something new to most of the members in the team and its really good for team building! We had a one whole day out from noon till dinner :D

The Paintball game was fun of course but the pain caused was really...hmm I dont know if the pain is worth the fun. I had two major bruises this time!

on my arm and..

and my thigh.

Ouch right? Both was swollen =[

Anywayyyyy its really fun, not the game itself actually, but its how we all can actually bond and make better friends after Team Day!

I was so glad that everything went well as planned and it actually turned out great! :D

We had the Guardian and Angel game as well during Team Day and today is the Guardian revealing day! I managed to give my lil angel a bag of gift to make him happy but anonymously haha. The satisfaction of seeing him feeling so happy was priceless :D

and this was what I posted in facebook to reveal myself :D

Comm Night!

2011-04-02T04:11:00.000-07:00

I can't help it but I'm feeling so lazy today. It is totally due to the super long day I had yesterday! I don't feel like doing anything at all today and don't feel like going anywhere at all. Ahh The Lazy Song suits me so well at the moment.

So, Communication Night was last night and hell it was such a long day yesterday! Like seriously... I went 8am class and then straight to Evergreen Hotel hotel in the noon right after I packed up and showered. The setting up and rehearsal went on up till 5pm then everyone started busy getting ready. The dinner went on and everything went on as planned and gosh I'm so glad everything went pretty smoothly. There are a bit of technical errors here and there but overall everything was alright and under control!

I was so glad to hear the feedbacks from lecturers and the seniors, it seems that everything was good! From good food, good environment to good job! It was seriously a big relieve for us when it was over.

I don't have many pictures with me yet but will post more when I got them. Promise :)

Here's a few for sneak peek :D

Here's me getting ready :)

and me after getting my hair and make up done.

The stage, which was the only stage made of glass in Penang.

And here's a picture of me and few of my favourite people in uni! :D

Nutty Nutella!

2011-03-24T09:28:00.000-07:00

Current addiction!

Who on earth would not like Nutella?!

Misfortunates are still happening, no?

Yes they are. I am so depressed over misfortunates came attacking me one by one and its still not ending yet! T_____________T

I am utmost irritated and disturbed now alright.

Glad that something made my day today hehe :)

Off to bed.

Good night people!

xoxo,

Ciara

Bleak

2011-03-08T09:16:00.000-08:00

Almost an hour of opening the tap, I then blast Paramore to my ears with my headphones.

Listening to Grenade made the tap opened again. How sick.

I had a Chipsmore cookie last night and it had 16 chips on it. Awesomeness.

Today was unproductive as well. Screw that.

Okay wtf. I was too random its like talking with every sentence not related to prior one.

Here's a note of appreciation I would like to dedicate to someone I dear:

I'm so glad to know you, you know? It totally made me feel better each and every time after turning to you. Since when we've become close I really don't know? and it is not important. What matters most is you're someone I can count on when I need someone. I never thought and it never ever crossed my mind that you'll be the person I'm turning to at this phase of my life. Yours words and the comfort you gave..its like giving me a pillow to cry on. I really hope this will last because I hardly find someone I can put so much trust on and someone I can talk to comfortably. Just so you know, you can count on me too! I'm amazed by how alike our thoughts can be at time.

Thank you so much for being there and to hear me out.

Lots of love,

Ciara

Of Reptiles and what not.

2011-02-26T20:40:00.001-08:00

Heyo!

How did your weekend go lovelies?

Guess my weekend was quite an interesting one :D I'm so glad I didn't run home actually. Hanging out with that crazy bunch was such a fun. Haha.

We were camping at Borders yesterday for hours from noon till dinner time and then back to Borders and end up left with embarrassment because we were too loud and everyone got distracted by us. Damn.

So at night we were at YK's place and she has an awesome collection of reptiles! From roaches to snakes and even geckhos!

This pretty little thing crawled on my arm :)

See see!

And this pretty snake, gentle but scary when she comes near my face.

I was so amused by her collection! I've never seen so many of these in someone's house before.

So we were having booze after that and we're all not much of a drinker except miss Grobe. As usual I was laughing so crazily and I couldn't handle my laughters =/

Look at her so sober and happy with the rice pot on the head.

She's the most sober one by the end of the game. Project Wasted winner. Wtf.

I shall out now.

YK's beanie :D

xoxo,

Ciara

Bitchy Beach

2011-02-24T22:15:00.000-08:00

Feel like going for an escape.

I miss the beach moments,

The cold salty sea water,

The sound of waves,

The irritating sand,

The stupid hot sun,

The endless laughters,

The tiring walks and chases,

And the wonderful people I spent on the beach with.

I miss them all.

Am hoping for a wonderful weekend.

Hopefully it will be for everyone as well :)

xoxo,

Ciara

Devastated still..

2011-02-16T07:06:00.000-08:00

I've never had so much obstacles at one point of time for such a long time already.

Usually it will be good things and misfortunes coming alternately but its been so long since the last time I felt everything feels so difficult and misfortunes keep attacking me. Wth.

I've been rather emotional since yesterday.

I would usually just rant and pour everything from my heart out to feel better but now when the worst happens..I really can't take it anymore.

I remember mentioning in my previous post that my grandmother was admitted to the hospital just a day or two before Chinese New Year and it was really really heart wrenching for me to see her being so weak and struggling so much to move due to stroke. Its her first time ever spending her time in the hospital ward during Chinese New Year and now she has left even before Chinese New Year has ended....

I still remember vividly few years back she was still healthy and strong even though she was already in her mid 80s and I only needed to hold her hands while walking her from one place to another may it be going out for breakfast, lunch or dinner. Then during one period of time she became so weak drastically. I had to hold her arms while walking her and I have to fully support her when she go up or down the staircase. She would need minutes to go up a few steps of stairs and she need to grab my arms tightly to support herself. Whenever we go out I would help her to get down from the car and then help her to get into the house. I was so worried that point of time and I used to ask my mom 'Why grandma has become so weak all of a sudden?' I was too worried that she will fall sick and gradually I could see that there were more and more things that she weren't able to do anymore :(

I was driving on Tuesday evening and I received a call from my mom. She was crying on the phone and told me the news. I totally went blank. I didn't what to do and which direction to go. I couldn't cry because I was working and I had to just control myself the whole time till the job was done. After that I was all tears. I was too devastated for not being able to say goodbye. I didn't even bid a proper farewell the last time I met her. She was resting and I didn't get the chance to.. T.T and I'm still crying like a child while typing this.

The funeral is on Saturday morning. I really really want to attend. I am really desperate to go back but I have mid term test on Friday. One paper at 8am and another one at 8.30pm. I have no idea how to get home by Saturday morning but I am really desperate to get back. I have asked around and even posted on Facebook. Yes I am really that desperate. But I still don't have any idea how am I able to get home on Friday night. Hopefully there will be a way.

Everyday should be like Valentine's Day

2011-02-15T04:22:00.000-08:00

14th February- A day where every couple would celebrate their love with their loved ones.

I think that love should be celebrated every single day. Not only once a year. The world would be so much more wonderful if everyone makes their partner feel special everyday and not just that one particular day of the year. But of course its not quite possible to make it every single day but most of the days perhaps? I'm sure every girl want to feel special always. I'm no exceptional :)

Happy Valentine's Day to you again boo. Even though its not Valentine's Day anymore but I won't mind celebrating our love every single day :)

I was in KL again for the weekend.

Went to Luna Bar to chill and to celebrate Moji's birthday. It was not bad but most of them said they prefer Sky Bar better.

We were sitting on the pool side and the alter was the famous place where FHM girls did their magazine shooting. The cylinder space which has blue lights is the DJ console with a buff DJ inside hee :)

You can also see the Petronas Twin Towers' peak from here. But sadly the lights will be off 12am everyday so you could only enjoy the bright scene of the skyscraper till 12 am =/

We visited Seremban as well. We drove all the way there just to have the Hakka Mee for lunch actually. It was really awesome. So sinfully tasty and its the 'you-will-totally-ask-for-more' thing! I would rate it 10/10. So sorry I forgot the name of the shop. Publicity fail.

After lunch, the Seremban guys brought us to buy their famous Siew Pao. Little did I know the cheese tart was the bomb! Haha. It was one of the best cheese tarts I've tried. Its a baked cheese tart and it was freshly baked when I had it. So orgasmic!

The fluffy cream cheese on top with the runny blueberry filling and the crispy and aromatic pastry base. Yumm!

I'm such a sucker for cheese tarts. Wtf.

I shall end this post with a picture of myself. Its been so long since I last camwhored.

Here's to all of you:

May everyday will be like Valentine's Day to all of you :)

Make your loved one feel special and you will feel special yourself too.

Love,

Ciara

Happy Chinese New Year no?

2011-02-07T04:11:00.000-08:00

I'm finally back in cyber space. I have been away for more than a week since I left Penang back to Ipoh for Chinese New Year. How was your Chinese New Year?

Hope all of you had a jolly one. 9 out of 10 Chinese New Year wishes and blessings commonly sounded like 'Happy Chinese New Year!' no matter who is it for. I got a lot of those but this year is a bit different. I heard a few 'Happy Rabbit New Year!' and what not.

Well...my Chinese New Year wasn't that happy after all.

Quite a number of unfortunate incidents happened which kills the Happy-Chinese-New-Year mood. I pray it will all end by now. Seriously.

I had fever twice in a week which caused me to have to opt for injection so that I could recover faster. Not only fever, cough and flu came too.

Then the day before CNY eve the car got kissed by another car which totally freaked us out because it was parked near us along the road side and we were just having a quick dinner. That brilliant culprit 'accidentally' bumped onto the car that was parked behind our car. Hence the car behind rolled towards our car and kissed it hard. Wtf.

Then, grandma was admitted to the hospital due to stroke. This totally broke my heart into pieces. I am so freggin worried especially when I see her feeling so weak, gasping for air and trying so hard to move. Its too heart wrenching.

And on the third day of Chinese New Year my brother went out with his friends and came back with his car's rear glass all shattered. Wtf. The best part is nobody knew how it happened.

Now you see know why its not that happy after all. But of course overall it was still a good one. Who would say a season to get red packets and continuous gatherings with friends and family as a bad one right?

I am missing everyone back in Ipoh already. Especially my mom and my super cute nephews and nieces.

A decent group picture of us after so long!Priceless! :D

Check out Amy's toes and mine! haha :D

Wheeeee~ <3

In dilemma now to decide where should I be this weekend. :/

2011-02-01T08:40:00.000-08:00

Was wondering if I ever cross your mind..

Because for me it happens all the time.

Wish that you would call me right now because I'm officially missing you.

Am in Ipoh

2011-01-30T08:46:00.000-08:00

Hello hello i'm back in Ipoh! :D

Chinese New Year break is always the happiest break! but I've not started to enjoy my CNY break yet because I've been working part time in Parkson the day right after I came back but its only for 3 days! So only one more day to go and I'll be free!

While working I managed to bump into so many old friends and its a really chance to get to see them again :) Hopefully the last day will be a good one!

Guess what is the first nostalgic thing I had as soon as I reached Ipoh? Haha..

A&W Rootbeer Float.

My cuteness brother was craving for it so I agreed and we went all the way to station 18 just to have it @.@

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAWRENT!

2011-01-26T10:22:00.000-08:00

A shout out to the *ahem* cutest thing on planet *cough cough*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAWRENT CHEONG!

I've decided to put this picture up because its the one and ONLY picture with a cute pose of you which I have haha. You're hardly pose like this so yeah I should show everyone this picture of yours :D

Have a wonderful 23rd Birthday sweetheart!

May you grow wiser but not older! :D

Lots of LOVE from me!

This is a very memorable picture for me. I will always remember the day this picture was taken :)

And sweetheart, THANK YOU again for the self-made cake you made for me. Its the very first I ever received! :) Its the best cake I've ever had.

Happy Happy Birthday again big boy!

cough cough

2011-01-26T06:51:00.000-08:00

I started coughing last night and I realize it was uncontrollable already when I couldn't control the coughs while I was on the phone.

Then I woke up this morning feeling like there's a big stone weighing on my chest and I can feel the nasal blockage which is giving me a huge depression.

I went to class as usual and still feeling alright with just a few coughs occasionally.

After dinner I came back to my room and I was dizzy as hell I had to lie down.

Took a 3 hours nap with the discomfort of my throat still haunting me.

AND FINALLY NOW I'M DOWN WITH COUGH, FLU AND FEVER! :(

Weekend in KL

2011-01-24T08:00:00.000-08:00

I always wonder how life would be and how will my days go by if I'm not here studying in Penang. Its a very distinctive turning point for me where I meet new people and doing different things and learning different things here. I'm glad that I'm here actually. Somehow its really a very good thing and I will sometimes feel its somehow whats best especially when I compare it with other things that could have came to me. Blah.

I attended an interview today and some questions really make me question myself a lot after the session. I really need to make my visions clearer!

So, I was in Selangor/ KL during the weekend. It was a good one and its been so long since I last had such quality time :D

@ ZOUK, KL

Opps flash overload..

And we went all the way to Klang to try Bak Kut Teh which they are famous for. Seriously Bak Kut Teh shops are scattered everywhere in Klang! Its really amazing.

And its different from the ones that I used to have all the while. Its not served in a claypot, the gravy is so damn precious that when you order for extra gravy they only give two freggin tablespoons =.=' and only certain parts of the swine comes with mushroom. For example if you are taking only lean meat then there will be no mushroom but when you order knuckles then mushroom comes together. Weird.

I shall not comment about the worthwhileness of driving almost an hour for this particular meal. =.=

On a random note, did you know drinking too much water is not really doing good for your health? It will actually flush away the sodium content in your body and hence will cause confusion and fatigue.

I saw this when I was in the plane and I guess its good to be thirsty once in a while? :)

Post Mortem

2011-01-16T08:42:00.000-08:00

A great news I would really like to share! I'm still having shopaphobic. How awesome is that =.='

I'm still afraid to step into any shops which sells clothes....especially FOREVER 21!

Okay let me make it clear.

The picture of my loot in my previous post are only stuff that I got ONLY from Forever 21 and I've been visiting there every single day for 4 days straight like its a routine!

I still have a stack of new clothes which I bought from Melbourne during my trip. How can I resist it where the sales were crazyyyyy especially during Boxing Day! We even woke up early on purpose just to shop. If I'm not mistaken we woke up at freggin 7am to go shopping because malls were opened at 5am. Even when I thought we were early we were actually NOT! We reached around 8am and the parking lot is already FULL! Can you imagine that? We went to Chadstone in Caulfield, Vic which is the largest shopping complex in Victoria and the parking lot is already full by 8am @.@

So yeah thats the situation during Boxing Day in Aussie. Pretty amazing.

I don't even dare counting my total expenses on my clothes. I could make a rough guess thats why I'm so scared @.@ Holy mama.

A Confession

2011-01-13T08:10:00.000-08:00

I have a confession to make.

I'm having shopaphobia at the moment. I don't know how long will it last but I hope and I'll pray this will last for at least a month [I doubt that =.=, probably the shopaphobia thing will fade away by next week. OH NO!] I've never felt this way before. Wtf.

I spent so much on shopping and I couldn't stop myself from buying *smacks forehead*

When I told my mom about me shopping before classes and after classes I got the nag of my life [HAHA exaggeration, she nagged me a bit but its the longest nag I've had since last year]

Errr...Here is my loot @.@ *shy*

Wtf.

According to April..I'm making a confession of a shopaholic. Wtf.

Relaxing yet exciting Melbourne trip!

2011-01-09T19:18:00.000-08:00

Hello there! Sorry for the hiatus again!! I was too lazy to blog about my Melbourne trip last week and was away to Genting Highlands to watch 黄子华 again during the weekend :D

Yesterday I've been travelling in a moving vehicle for more than 6 hours from Genting to Ipoh then Ipoh to Penang non stop. It nearly killed me due to the dizziness and the nauseating ride =.=' End up I couldn't sleep at night and I was on the bed till past 3am. It was such an endurance seriously. By the way tt was sooooo freggin cold in Genting Highlands. Its been so long since I experienced such cold in Genting Highlands.

I should blog about my trip to Melbourne before it gets too overdue again. My trip to Melbourne was awesome and it is so far one of the best trips I've had. Its relaxing and yet exciting :)

There are too much write about if I were to write about every single thing that happened. So I'll just bomb you with pictures and let them do the talking! :D

This was taken in Crown casino and this lil kombi van is so freggin cute!

Us having Max Brenner hot chocolate :D

Beer session in noon haha

The yummiest gelato ever! Every single flavour is so tempting! I didn't get a chance to try green tea flavour :( and and and durian was the BOMB!

MART, breakfast place in Albert Park

Poached eggs on toast with smoked salmon!

Corn Fritter

Me!

Santa and I in Docklands

At Footscray market

Vietnamese Bread. Its really good and I might say its better than the one I tasted when I was in Vietnam haha.

At William's town

At the pier in William's town

I was brought to try Indonesian food. Its really really good actually. This is my rendang beef

Beef penyet

and Ikan penyet

In Botanical garden

Federation Square :D

This was taken in Victoria Harbour on Christmas day where the city looks like a dead city. It was so quiet out there. I guess everyone does their celebration at home :)

Macaroons from Brunetti

We stopped by Shelly beach when we were on out way to Venus Bay to collect lala.

Venus Bay!

and look at the amount of lala that we collected! I totally think this amount can serve 30pax or it can last us for a week!

South Melbourne Market

Carrum beach! <3

we had so much fun at the beach. I was so tired after playing ball with that two monkeys haha.

Laurent- recommended for pastries and desserts. The desserts were fine didn't impress me much tho.

The Pancake Parlour!!

where they serve the most orgasmic short stack ever! I can never get bored of this. I had so many of this throughout my trip.

Thats briefly about my trip. There are many more pictures in my Facebook that I did not post here. Go check them out! :) It takes a lot of time posting pictures here thats why I cut off a lot of pictures =/

I shall take my lunch now and get my laundry done!

Blog soon!

xoxo,

Ciara

Back from holiday!

2011-01-02T06:07:00.000-08:00

Hellooooo *waves*

I'm back from Melbourne finally. My two weeks there was really really awesome. I had such a great time visiting places, taking pictures, slacking, being a typical tourist and of course stuffing myself with food. [p/s: I've never seen myself so fat before in these few years @.@]

There's so much to blog about but too much till the mojo has totally gone! I've already given up on my 21st birthday celebration parts. So yeah sorry for not being efficient enough. I will update about my 21st birthday later alright! :D

Oh yesss even tho its late but still HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! :D

Have a wonderful and splendid year ahead. May everyone's resolutions will be achieved and everything will go smooth sailing for everyone!

A lil sneak peek from my Melbourne trip :D

More updates soon! <3>

Have a great week ahead and enjoy the very first week of 2011 everyone!

xoxo,

ciara

2010-12-27T06:13:00.000-08:00

Its just me.

Merry Christmas!

2010-12-24T17:52:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas everyone!
With love all the way from melbourne! :D

NADIA IS A ROCKSTAR!

2010-12-24T17:47:00.000-08:00

I LOVE NADIA FOREVER AND EVER! she is awesome! too awesome to be true!! my life rocks with nadia! i dont know what else to say! i just am madly insanely obsessed with nadia! she sings awesome songs and has an incredible voice!! i wish she produces a CD i would spend all my money to buy it. i have a pathetic life and i only nadia's voice singing calms me down! in melbourne she makes the world rock...

EVERYONE MUST LOVE NADIA TOO! BECAUSE SHE IS AWESOME!!!

lots of love from melbourne
ciara!
and oh yea!
MERRY CHRISTMAS

Hope

2010-12-19T02:35:00.000-08:00

Feeling insecure.
Feeling under appreciated.

I spent so much effort and time on this but it seems like its heading to no where. The next path is blurred again. I've always wished that my paths and my paces are clear, to know where I'm heading to. Struggling to put things together and pulling things together is never easy.

I hope you could feel my endurance.
I hope you could see my pain.
I hope you could stitch my wounds.
I hope you can put yourself in my shoes.

The love notes.
The messages.
The calls.
Its the best thing I never knew I needed at the point of moment.

What do people actually do when they feel that they are already at the verge of breaking down and giving up?
Do they really walk away to defend and protect themselves?
Or the strong ones will hold on to think that everything will be ok?

21!

2010-12-13T09:07:00.000-08:00

I'm finally 21!

So that gives me a legal pass to everything and there won't be any cases of underage for me anymore! :D

This reminds me a lot a lot of being kicked out from the casino and being checked on my id in front of clubs entrances =/

But now hooray to the legal pass!

Ok don't judge me I'm not exactly happy about being 21 just because I can enter any clubs or casino legally. But turning 21 is really something different for me. I'm like entering a new phase of life and hopefully its the turning point of life. Of course to turn to a better direction towards the light that shines from happiness and joy.

In my previous post it was my birthday celebration part 1. Erm...I have part 2 and part 3 but I couldn't blog bout it because the pictures were not with me. I'm such a failure in blogging =.=' hahaha but anyway I will try my best to update bout the celebrations as soon as I can! Part 2 was a sweet outing of movie, cakes, pizza, clubbing and cake again! Part 3 was a small dinner party in my house with a few special people :D This year I had the longest celebration ever! I've never had so many celebrations before >.<

Thank you so much to my awesome girlfriends who made all these happen. Its too long to list out so you should know who you are! I love you girls! <3

Lots of love,

Ciara

21st Birthday Part 1

2010-12-07T20:45:00.000-08:00

I'm still overjoyed over Monday where my wonderful girlfriends came down to Ipoh to celebrate my be-earlied birthday with me. Its too early I know but Jane had to leave to Penang tomorrow already thats why. I'm totally in a birthday mood already now!

It was nothing much but the outing was really really sweet. Its been so long I had such outing in Ipoh already since my high school girlfriends left Ipoh. I felt like a high school girl again.

We had lunch at my favourite place for custard, watched 'Due Date' [highly recommended because it is so farking hilarious! I laughed so hard in the cinema =.=' and its not only me okay] We then had dinner in Secret Garden [its now one of the popular hang out places in Ipoh to chill and have tea. The environment is good but the food is tad bit bland for me, I would prefer Brewster's if its for food]

Some shots of me with the surprise birthday cake :D

I teared when they sang me birthday songs. Yeah songS you didn't get me wrong they sang it in three different languages haha but it was too touching I couldn't help myself from tearing. They all came so far to Ipoh just to do this for me. How wonderful isn't it?

On a random note, there is a box in my house where my mom simply used it to put some junks and there are new born baby kittens in it! Its been a few days already and they are now furry but still so tiny >.<

Look at them! eeeek >.<

Was out again with my dearest girls today. It was such a tragic day @.@ haha.

A and J, you left a permanent mark on me. I will keep this gift forever! I love you girls! Muaxxx!

xoxo,

Ciara

Joy of semester break

2010-12-07T01:35:00.000-08:00

Oh its been a week already!

I only have three more weeks of holiday but I'm excusing myself for another week because I'll be skipping the first week of next semester. So in total I have 5 weeks of holiday! YAY haha.

The first week of holidays was awesome I slacked so much I didn't do anything productive at all o.0

I went Cameron Highlands with the most awesome people and it was totally fun. We plucked strawberries, went for tea at the peak of the hill in Boh tea farm, took pretty pictures, enjoyed the cool breeze, had charcoal steamboat for dinner and etc. The trip was really lovely. We were lucky that it was chilly because it was drizzling quite a bit :D

Let me bomb you with pictures!

Such a beautiful canopy of morning glories!

I was so excited plucking strawberries :D

My lovely girlfriends :)

Ahh yes this is Boh Tea farm. The small structure in the picture which is sticking out from the peak is the Boh Tea Cafe! We had tea there :D

It was really chilly. I had goosebumps!

And this is the charcoal steamboat we had that I mentioned earlier :)

Munching on strawberries while watching movie! Totally orgasmic.

Apart from this trip the rest of the week has been pretty occupied as well. Went out with Peiyek for lunch, did some shopping and we went for nail art! Its been so long :)

Hers :)

Mine :)

Brewster's has shifted to Greentown, Ipoh if you guys didn't know. They now have more seats and more tables to serve compared to the previous shop which I previously worked at. The food is still awesome like always. I went with mom last week to try out and to check out their new place. I am glad to be able to meet up with the fun people that I worked with.

Tried out the lamb steak and pasta. The steak was really awesome it was grilled to perfection of medium-well. The meat is perfectly pink and juicy on the inside! :D

On a random note, I went for movies with my girlfriends yesterday and I had the regular size popcorn but it was so huge! It was previously the large size but they have upgraded the size and made this huge cup a regular instead of large anymore. Can you imagine how huge the large size is? TGV thinks that Malaysians are getting more fond of caramelized popcorn? I would suggest them to serve salted popcorn too! Salted ones are good too!

Jane said I looked like a sohai here =.=' Really?

Shall update soon more on recent events after I got my pictures. Have a great week ahead everyone!

Lots of love,

Ciara

The Ipoh girl is back

2010-11-28T09:17:00.000-08:00

I'm back in Ipoh people!

Sorry for the hiatus :) its not that I just reached but I couldn't blog as soon as I got back due to no access to the internet.

Ipoh welcomed me warmly and its feels so good to be home.

The feeling of slacking and watching movie all day with nothing to worry about is totally awesome.

I'm feeling the itch of baking already! It comes to me every holidays.

I shall find the time to bake as soon as I can :)

I have one hella long shopping list but I couldn't get them all yet its out of my afford-ability =/

I'm not that loaded so I need to sort out my priorities.

I shall behave and shop no more.

I regretted shopping on the last day of my exam. Shit!

Cameron Highlands on Tuesday YAY!

Birthday next next Tuesday!

and Melbourne next next Wednesday! YAY again! <3>

OHYES! I totally have to blog about this. I met my long lost relative last week in the midst of my finals. I've heard about him from Aunt Annie quite some time ago and I never thought I could actually meet him. He initiated our communication which was first from Facebook [reminds me of the movie "The Social Network" and automatically the phrase 'I'm the CEO,bitch!' came to my mind haha] and then to phone calls and even SMS-es and we finally met up. He's 60, but he's my second cousin!

Well I come from a really big family same goes to both maternal and paternal side but the latter is wayyyyy bigger. My grandfather and his grandfather are brothers but the age gap was big. Its about 20 years gap [I guess?] which totally explains our age gap. Our grandfathers have 15 siblings in total! Its a lot I know.

I'm so glad that we met and I got to know so many stories about my family! Its really a story worth telling and the best part is I'm part of the story haha. The feeling of seeing my name included in the printed humongous family tree is just fuhhhhh I don't know how to put it in words!

Ngeeeeeehehehhehehehehhe~

On a random note, J.Co yogurt is my current favourite and obsession!

Wonderful memories of you and me :)

I shall go to lala land now it's gonna be a long day tomorrow!

xoxo,

Ciara

Welcome Friday!

2010-11-25T03:56:00.000-08:00

OH YES

Last paper tomorrow morning!

I'm excited!

But I've not started packing my stuff. I'm worried. I have a feeling there will be one whole load of stuff and its gonna scare me.

But still...Can't wait for tomorrow! :D

Anyway I had the most dreadful morning ever. Been working out answers for tomorrow's paper since last night till 7.30am this morning @.@ and we continued after waking up at 2pm.

Its my first time ever witnessing sunrise from my desk in hostel. Blahh.

Say NO to animal cruelty!

2010-11-20T21:45:00.000-08:00

I can't believe its still a weekend. I'm hoping time will pass faster this week and it becomes slower next week. Hahahahaha.

I can't wait for the next weekend to come!

Oh ya! I watched a video from facebook a while ago, its such a mothafuckin brutal video!!!

I cursed non stop while watching and even after watching! Not only me but I'm sure anyone who watched it for sure would have cursed their lungs out.

There's this girl, she brought out a tiny rabbit from its cage and played with the rabbit as if its a fucking toy. The rabbit fell onto the ground from the table and she just casually picked it up and continued playing with it. And the next thing I knew she actually sat on the tiny rabbit! FUCK HER max! Then she used a thick glass piece and placed it on top of the rabbit and it couldn't escape! Then she SAT on that piece of glass WITH THE POOR RABBIT UNDERNEATH! HOLY SHIT! I don't know if she's mentally illed or what she must be insane! She was smiling all the way when she was sitting on the poor rabbit and crushing the rabbit's bones! wtfwtfwtf! Her whole body weight was on the piece of glass with the poor rabbit underneath. OMFG I don't get it why would she want to do that! The 'best' part was when the rabbit is flattened she actually FLIPPED THE RABBIT to another side and CONTINUED SITTING ON IT with the glass piece on top still! FUCK YOU BITCH! Here is the video if you're interested to watch.

Apart from the fucking bitch who's doing all these nonsense there are two other girls witnessing the whole process and the videoman as well. I don't think they are all mentally illed. Fuck that bitch man! She deserved to be jailed and deserve to be fucked with a fucking durian! I hope her pussy will rot and she will have parasites all over her pussy. Motherfucker. Their stupid brains must be located in their rectum!! How could they enjoy watching that bitch doing this to that poor little rabbit. I really can't take it its too heart wrenching! Thats the worst video ever! Don't they have mercy on that poor little rabbit? :(

p/s: sorry for being so vulgar I can't help it. Sigh.

I shall stop talking about that video already. Its too sickening.

Hmm..for few consecutive days I will automatically open my eyes at 9 am and its not something common for me because for those who know me well enough, I'm a horrible heavy sleeper. When I'm asleep all my 5 senses will shut including my ears! @.@

When I don't get enough sleep I will barely hear the alarm or I shall say alarmS.

That is why I need to always make sure I get at least 7 or 8 hours of sleep in order to prevent myself from not being able to wake up the following morning :(

Well most of the time I tend to forget about this heavy sleeping disease that I have and I would carelessly go to bed late.

Is there anything that could make me fall asleep better?

I don't like the feeling of not being able to fall asleep. Last night I spent an hour rolling on the bed before I could fall asleep.

Perhaps my insomnia is coming back. Not only insomnia, its actually my 'exam-period-disease'. I even had a nightmare!

Usually during exam period, insomnia and nightmares every night is something very common for me :(

When I get too stressed I'll even have diarrohea. Wtf.

2010-11-20T06:05:00.000-08:00

Okay this is too funny I can't help sharing this to everyone.

Hahahahhaha

I was in a horrible mood and I was ranting and cursing non stop to her and this is when the conversation started to go wrong =____='

Of Harry Potter and Birthday Celebration!

2010-11-19T23:44:00.000-08:00

Since my next paper is next Wednesday, we decided to slack a bit after yesterday's paper.

Hence we went for Harry Potter! which made us all Happy Potters! :D

The movie was not bad but at certain parts I think its a bit too draggy but overall its still fine. Emma Watson is turning into such a pretty lady and she looked good throughout the whole movie. Especially the very first scene of her and the scene when she was leaving her house :D

Before movie we went for dinner at TGI Friday in conjunction of my roommate's birthday which falls on the 21st of November which is tomorrow :)

We had a great time celebrating her birthday and even though there were only 5 of us but it felt so merry during dinner. TGI Friday's staff were so sporting and wonderful. They have great manners and their service was good.

Unfortunately one of the staff ruined our surprise celebration [my roommate did not expect us to celebrate for her that early]. He came over and asked "Excuse me, you have two cakes with us, so you would like both to come together after meal or you want it before meal?" I was totally stunned and I glared at him! He saw me glaring and he was surprised because he didn't realize he did a big mistake =.=' Too ridiculous. That is why I wouldn't say that their service was flawless. Haha!

Dinner was fine but it could be better. As usual I still think that the meat that they serve are pretty dry. Especially chicken breast. But the pasta was good! I actually had penne and I think its still good in spite of the dislikeness I have for penne. I will usually go for fettucine, spaghetti or macaroni.

Southwest Mac and Cheese.

Okay I was seriously expecting macaroni to be served instead of penne. I even asked the waitress "Are you sure this is Southwest Mac and Cheese?" and she said YES to my surprise. Why can't they put Penne and Cheese instead? But it was also partially my fault for not reading the dish description carefully before ordering haha.

Jack Daniel's Chicken.

As mentioned above I think the meat is tad bit too dry for my liking.

Jack Daniel's Burger.

Awesome piece of bacon! :D

After dinner, TGI staffs made my roommate stood on the chair and she had to sing in front of everyone with a bottle of ketchup pretending its a microphone. Haha and after singing they all rapped her a Birthday song. It was so cute and fun! So after the song she had to close her eyes make a wish for a minute and while she was making a wish they put both cakes bout a metre away and she had to blow off the candle from where she stood! That moment was really funny and she took so long to blow off the candles. Then the staffs again rapped another song for her. Its really loud and practically the whole restaurant was looking towards us.

Roommie pulling off candles from the cake with her mouth :)

The happy birthday girl!

A group picture of us.

Love you girls! <3

p/s: Excuse the horrible quality. I've already tried my best to edit it to be the best visible colour. The original picture looks far worse than this. =/

Shall get back to study already!

xoxo,

Ciara

The Power of Doughnuts!

2010-11-18T01:01:00.000-08:00

Okay I'm not quite motivated to study right now.

But fortunately today is indeed a better day.

I'm blessed with wonderful friends.

From the ride to the clinic to doughnuts!

I really appreciate it a lot.

Thank you lovelies <3

So I was munching on doughnuts a moment ago and I gobbled them up so quickly haha!

Since there's no ice cream, doughnuts do good too to trigger my happy hormones.

Coco Loco and Alcapone!

Blissful much?

Coco Loco is so damn awesome! The chocolate sauce in the doughnut is so scarily generous! Its totally chocolaty in and out. VERY Orgasmic! I felt like drinking chocolate sauce more likely than eating a doughnut. The chocolate sauce kept oozing out in the box right after I took this picture coz I stole a bite before capturing XD and it dripped onto my notes as well while I was eating. =________='

I totally felt like a happy girl now! :)

p/s: I'm prone to get sugar rush o.0

xoxo,

Ciara

Of itchy hands and painful legs

2010-11-17T23:29:00.000-08:00

Hello there.

I shall greet you with my legs this time =.=

Cute or not my swollen ankle?

The not so smooth surface on my left leg is caused by the bandage.wtf =[

And hello to another bruise =.='

My legs are in such a mess. GRR

In need a high dosage of this.

I am emotionally unstable.

Enough said =/

xoxo,

Ciara

2010-11-17T09:24:00.000-08:00

Why do I feel so weak.......?

I'm drenched in Vanilla Twilight

2010-11-17T06:12:00.000-08:00

Currently listening to Vanilla Twilight by Owl City.

The lyrics are so beautiful and lovely..

Some of my favourite lines are "..the spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly~" and "..as many times as I blink I'll think of you tonight~"

So sweeeeet <3

Listening to this made my day a lil.

Guess what I had a bad day again so don't blame me for ranting again :(

It all went good since I woke up during noon and started studying and I was surprisingly quite productive. So we decided to go for a jog today to cut off the massive calories we took last night and bad luck it is..I sprained my ankle =_____________=' The moment right after I heard the cracking sound from my ankle I fell flat sitting on the grass and my tears just kept oozing out T.T It was as pain as fuck okayyy.

But it isn't that bad now at least I still can walk slowly but go down the stairs, even a short flight of stairs, is able to make me curse like 3425083042037485 times because it hurts my ankle a lot.

It didn't end there yet! It rained so heavily when we were having dinner and we couldn't go back. We had to sit there for more than an hour till we finally gave up waiting and we decided to ask for help. Plus with my injured leg it'll take us forever to reach.

Luckily Yi Chien who's such an angel came to give us a ride back.

I hope tomorrow will be a better day! *cross fingers*

I've had enough of bad days. Its driving me crazy. Hope I'll get well soon too..boooohoooo :(

Enjoy the rest of the week y'all.

xoxo,

Ciara

I'm dejected too

2010-11-15T22:25:00.000-08:00

A very rare '2posts-a-day' day.

I don't usually update much but for now I just don't feel like talking to anyone at all. I wana hide myself in a hole and stay out of the world. I just want to be alone. I don't want my emotions to affect me too much. I felt like a dumb blonde [sorry for stereotyping but imho I had the most 'dumb blonde moment ever!] and I totally felt like a bimbo.

But a part of me feels there's a need to let out my feelings. I will die if I let myself continue evolving in this emotion. Hence, blogging it is. A soliloquy is what I need. Not a real communication yet.

Its funny to see how my appetite deteriorate so drastically.

Last night I had 4 rounds of supper after dinner. No, I did not eat to make myself gain weight. I actually felt horrible eating but I just can't resist satisfying myself hunger. I was drooling over a packet of Maggi mee okay. T.T I was THAT serious.

But now, after this morning, when I had the stupidest moment ever, when I was striked by the biggest impact of the year [which was caused by myself] , my humongous appetite was swept away as quick as a wind blow.

I spent an hour to finish a cup of hot chocolate. And that was my lunch.

I'm now more ready than ever to expect your coming.

I'm surprised by the calls and messages I received. Very much appreciated. Really.

I really could use a wish right now..as how Hayley Williams sang it.

I want to turn back time. I wish to turn back 6 hours from now. Just 6 onlyyy. I will be really really grateful if it happens.

*smacks head* Dream on Ciara.. T.T

You know its surprising that recently a few people that I don't expect to hear from and are actually alert of my statuses. I don't mean facebook only [if that came to your mind as soon as you see the word 'status'] It feels good when you know that people still care and are not totally ignorant towards you.

Gahhh I better put myself together and get over this.

I'm optimistic and I will always be!

xoxo,

Ciara

Day 2

2010-11-15T20:05:00.000-08:00

I had the most FML moment in my life.

Never ever this had happened to me. Guess there's always a first time for everything but this 'first time' is the last thing I ever wished that will happen.

I just can't believe how foolish I was and the state of depression I am in now, can't be expressed with words.

Wrong decisions are truly devastating.

There's no one I could blame. Its all my fault and I'm the only person that could help myself.

Seriously who on earth will let this happen to themselves?

Sitting here, stunned, still can't believe what I just did.

Feeling hopeless and stupid.

Feel like stabbing myself with a goddamn knife and shoot my head with a M16.

Even though the situation is not as horrible as it is seen but I just can't accept what happened. An hour an a half ago to be precise. The moment of panic, the moment of 'nothing-can-be-done' and the moment of disappointment. They strike so hard on me. And I'm still feeling it.

The impact is to big for me.

I'm not that easy going when it comes to this.

Its my priority and I'm ruining it.

Nothing comes before this and all the while it has been this way.

But.......................

Still stunned

Speechless.

Helpless.

FML

Day 1

2010-11-15T01:50:00.000-08:00

Overslept.

1 paper.

Sunny side up.

Ariel.

Papaya.

Grades.

Online shopping disease.

Thunder.

Advertising.

They all came to me today.

But they all came together with love and care :D

I'm a lucky girl.

Lovey Dovey

2010-11-10T08:52:00.000-08:00

I'm in such a lovey dovey mood all of a sudden. But a moment ago I was feeling stressed to the max =.= I need to speed up my revision but I can't seem to. I'm stressed but I'm still slacking. wtf.

Can't stop listening to 两个人不等于我们 by 王力宏...I think it repeated for almost four hours if i'm not mistaken =.='' I think thats the cause of me feeling lovey dovey. Hmm the effects of the media. You see how the media is able to stuff in ideology and messages to one's mind and affect one's mood and behaviour. I'm definitely a victim of the media.

I remember when I was in Bangkok in September, I was at this shop selling clothes? can't say its a boutique so yeah. Anyway, there's this lady was looking at the dresses at the same rack as I did and she was holing her handbag in her arms. So she managed to pick one dress and wanted to try it on and she asked her partner, I'm not sure if its her husband or boyfriend, to hold her bag. She went "Honey do you mind holding my bag for a while?" and her partner answered "I'd love to!" with a really sweet smile on his face :D I was actually stunned LOL. I didn't expect that answer from him and I expect to just hear a "sure!" or "of course" from him but he said "I'd love to!". I find that answer really rare. And its really sweet omg omg! That particular scene is still lingering in my mind hahaha

Leagues

2010-11-07T21:19:00.000-08:00

"My dad says if you ever get to be with a girl who is too good for you, marry her"-Ashton Kutcher (Vatentine's Day)

How would you consider that a girl is too good for you?

You ever believe in the existence of leagues? Things like you both are of different leagues, when some said you both are at different leagues hence you're not meant to be together because there will be a gap in between or there are not much in common because the way you live and how you socialize is different. Many will agree with that because they agree that when you're with a guy/girl who is way too good for you, your self esteem will be lowered automatically.

But hey, to look in a different way or on a brighter note, its a great opportunity for you to improve yourself. Since you're already together it could possibly mean that the one from a higher league is partially accepting the one from the lower one. There will be expectations and demands but it is not really a bad thing. For me its healthy for self development wise.

But of course there will be a lot of tolerance needed.

It will not be good for you if you have low tolerance. Tolerating is not easy right. Especially if its for a long period of time.

In short, I don't agree with the thing when two person are of different leagues shouldn't be together. Somehow it could turn out to be great.

I saw this again on Janice's blog. I've seen this quote for many many times tho.

" Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lies under the stars and listen to your heartbeat or who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you are just as pretty without make up on. One who is constantly reminding you about how much he cares and how lucky is him to have you. The one who turns to his friend and said "That's her." "

Its not easy to find such a guy but it is not impossible.

To the guy who are able to do what was listed in the quote above: I know you're somewhere out there!

Many have asked me which type of guy are you attracted to?

I've not actually thought about this a lot and I've not tried listing it down the qualities or characteristics that I'm looking for.

Maybe I should give it a try haha. Some girls I know really do so. A checklist to evaluate a guy that they are interested in.

I guess my answer will be just like any other girl's answer. Those few basic things like a guy who's lovely, who cares and who loves you for who you are and etc. But for me knowing how to dress up and knowing how to cook is definitely a bonus. Hygienic is a must and I like those who smell good all the time. I would prefer someone who shares the same kind of interests with me and someone who love to go to the places that I like to go. And again, for sure if the guy is able to do what was listed in the quote above then it will be really really awesome. :D

I guess thats about it. My tolerance level is not that low. I'm pretty good at accepting I think.LOL

Anywayyyy, have a great week ahead everyone! For those who are sitting for exam ALL THE BEST! <3

p/s: I miss you guys! <3

xoxoxo,

Ciara

Grey Sunday

2010-11-07T04:53:00.000-08:00

Not a good day today I suppose.

Not only for me but for some people around me as well.

Feeling exhausted.

Unproductive.

Busy.

Dropped my phone.

Horrible dinner.

Broke.

and bloated.

RAWR!!

Halloween

2010-11-01T00:20:00.000-07:00

Hello lovelies!

So I spent my weekends in Genting. Not exactly that much of fun but still alright overall.

Halloween was great there because everyone seem to be in such a mood for Halloween. Many many dressed up as witches, devils, princesses and even clowns.

I was with one of them :)

Blood Red

2010-10-28T02:21:00.000-07:00

I love the view of my fingers typing with blood red nails. Weird I know. Haha.

Ahh what do I do now.

I've completed my assignments, report, and quiz which all fell on this particular week.

This will be seriously a 'what-a-week' thing.

Its the busiest week ever and yet one of the most enjoying week.

Sunday I had the best family bonding time, Monday to Wednesday was busy as hell with all the things that I had to do which was priorly listed. Thursday (today) and Friday I'm totally free and I'm still thinking how to occupy my time. Saturday and Sunday will be in Genting. Haha.

Most importantly this coming Sunday I'm heading back to Ipoh again!

Its study week next week. Its not gonna be a partypartypartyeveryday time.

I gotta kick my own ass to get myself to open my books and read every fuckinarticle in the books.

Talking about books. Anyone seen my advertising book? Its gone. Damn where did I misplace it.

I realized that I do not have recent pictures of me for the longest time ever. I used to be such a camera whore and I take pictures no matter where I go and no matter who I am out with. Where has the camera whore gone to? Me iz now no no camera whore T.T Me haz no no pwettty pictures. wtf.

One of the most recent pictures that I have is this.

My roommate and I managed to stack up so much of salad in the tiny bowl provided by Pizza Hut last week during lunch. :) Pro? Haha. I must say we're getting better on this already. Do date us for Pizza if you want a lot of salad!

Short rants

2010-10-25T09:42:00.000-07:00

I just had a soliloquy with S. WTF and FML.

I can't bear keeping things to myself and I'm so used to have her to listen everytime.

Seriously why do I keep feeling disrespected?

I just finished doing 'quizzes' bout an hour ago. Been working on it since like what 5pm? and its already 1am now. Its such a long day.

Time passes too slowly today. Just today because I always feel 24 hours is too little time for a day. It should be 36hours a day or something.

Again I shall continue with my assignment now.

Good night!

Bruno Mars

2010-10-25T00:32:00.000-07:00

I've got a reminder to commemorate how things have come this far and how well things have become. Well its great that things manage to come this far but not all that came this far are still great. I wished things could stay the same.

On a brighter note I am much much emotionally stable now. Thank you for those who came looking for me randomly to check if i'm okay. I really felt so loved and being cared for. What do I do without you? Seriously.

I'm just an ordinary girl who needs attention, respect, to feel loved and of course to be loved. I'm just an ordinary girl who dreams to be somebody's princess like every other girl.

Who doesn't?

I am not the kind that can bear not having attention from the people that I want attention from. Scary much? Hopefully if you're reading this you won't think "Thank gawd I'm not one of them". Nahh but I totally won't bitch about it and I won't behave like a bitchy 'LOA'. I will stay cool haha.

I've been listening to Bruno Mars for the past 4 hours. Its too addictive. I'm totally the kind that will keep looping the same few songs again and again for the longest time ever if I'm in love with that few songs or that one particular song. It doesn't make me bored. I just love repeating it.

I was totally flattered today someone stared at me with dreamy eyes. ROFLMAO. Perasan max. *smacks own forehead*

Have a great week ahead people!

Gotta carry on with my workload which is piling up like a tower.

For the very very very first time ever I actually feel good to be busy.

Weird.

Toodles!xoxo

FISHY

2010-10-24T10:51:00.000-07:00

Being grateful over something can be shown through many ways.

Choosing the most expensive restaurant in town to show gratefulness is not necessary at all.

Something fishy is going on.

1095

2010-10-18T22:50:00.000-07:00

Yes its 1095 today.

Its been a long journey with you.

A long and tough but sweet journey with you.

So much of memories.

So much of obstacles.

So much of joy.

So much of tears.

So much of fear.

So much of laughter.

So much of comfort.

So much of experience.

How is it possible that you'll be forgotten?

How is it possible that you'll be given up easily?

Our path ahead is blurry.

Our path ahead is not a red carpet.

Our path ahead is definitely not solid tar.

But I will still take a step forward.

Your palms.

Your broad shoulders.

Your cute face.

Your comfy chest.

Your everything.

I miss them all.

Happy Anniversary sweetheart.

I miss you.

Mess

2010-10-18T02:17:00.001-07:00

What would we be now if I wasn't there the day I met you. Will we even end up like this if I didn't make a move or even gave in. I am doubting my decision. I doubt my feelings. I don't know who I can trust now. I am just so helpless. I've never felt this way for such a long time. Everything seem to be in a mess and nothing feels right. Screw that. FML moment. I need an exit.

WHY

2010-10-15T22:28:00.000-07:00

Crying over a happy song being played.

My way

2010-10-13T01:10:00.000-07:00

Its a fact that everyone is greedy. I'm no exceptional. Most people will have thoughts like "I want this I want that" and they will never have enough. Its not an unusual thing to be greedy but its how greedy you can be differs yourself from others. I guess I should lower my greed and be more grateful of what I have now. I'm all good and fine now. Why ask for more? Why take so much trouble to gain more and more when what is available is more than enough, right?

Its a rainy Wednesday and I miss rainy days. It gives me a reason to wear long sleeves which I actually adore but I can't endure being warm and sweaty so thats why I hardly wear them. Not today either. I did not step out of my room since I woke up at 12.00pm today. I couldn't get up when the alarm rang hence I skipped my lecture. Its not really a class that I think its worth going thus I didn't mind skipping it even though I set my alarm the night before to wake me up for class. My actions are actually ironic. Haha yes.

My thoughts have been running wildly in my head today. Thinking about a lot of things that are going on and what do I have to do to escape from this pathetic situation I am in. I'm now such a mess [academic wise]. I need motivation. I need inspiration. But still I need A LOT of entertainment which totally kills me [mentally]. I want things to go my way all the time, I want things that I like to be around me all the time, I want people that I like to be around me and I want to do things that I like to do always! You see greed in me now, don't you? Yes I am like that. Pathetic.

I've been looking through a lot of old pictures and I found these!

Thats Vivian and I hahaha good ol' times :)

and the noisy people back in school. Look at how much we have all changed! Geez..

This is the only picture of us in tuition that I have =.=' Tuition moments are the most unforgettable ones. We laugh so much during tuition and thats like the best part during school life. Look at Siksik, the girl of skin and bones and thats me in the middle and Meiwenn, the pervert girl and the naughty one big time. Then I found this!

Its her masterpiece obviously. Thank you Meiwenn for the ornaments on my face. =.='

The Bright Monday

2010-10-11T07:00:00.001-07:00

When everyone says 'Monday Blues', to my surprise this Monday of mine is actually quite a good day for me! Monday is finally treating me well? Haha.

I'm so damn relieved that my research paper is finally completed and all of a sudden everything just feels right. Psychology huh?

Today I finally felt that I finally have my own time to do thing that I wanted to do like taking my own sweet time to jog, spend hours for dinner and even watch a movie in my room which I have not been doing these for quite some time.

Anyway this week is Sushi King's members' week! We're gonna gobble up loads of sushi together tomorrow I can't wait! It will be our second time doing this together :D Thinking about smoked salmon makes me drool like a greedy dog =.='

This was what happened during the last Sushi Bonanza

On a random note, there was a humongous lizard in our room just now and it was moving so quickly! My roommate and I were screaming our lungs out [opps *blushing*] and damn now its no where to be soon. I hope it's already out of our room :( On the bright note we're now all calm and singing to ourselves already LOL.

Yesterday was 10th of October 2010 which makes the date looked so special 10.10.10 and I see a lot bloggers blogged about it. Even Babygirl Hani made a real interesting post from it and she looked so cute and 'chinese' with her straight hair back in 2006 ahax :D but one person told me, "if you look at this date from another point of view there's really nothing so special about it because a lot claimed that it's only gonna happen once in our lifetime...but all the other days are the same too they will never repeat and we will go through all days only once in our lifetime too" haha got me really speechless for how critical this person can be but its true. So yeah we seriously gotta appreciate whatever that come and go in our life coz things are hardly gonna repeat in life. Even if they do it might not be the same anymore.

You know you don't need to be told that you're not forgotten all the time to see that you're actually being forgotten or not. You should know deep down whether you're really forgotten. Getting upset all the time just because you don't like to hear what you hear and being too pessimistic will deteriorate a lot of things in life. This does not only apply to love but it applies to a lot of aspects in live. Being too sensitive over what people say to you or say about you is not good. Well everyone knows that but most of them tend to forget. Why let yourself to only gain confidence from other people?

Cloud 9

2010-10-10T09:44:00.000-07:00

The happiest girl around!

Tamia: Officially Missing You

..."from the sweet things you told me to the way that you hold me"...

Oh! Sushi

2010-10-07T00:36:00.000-07:00

OH Sushi!

It's one of the newest Japanese restaurant in Ipoh I reckon :) Its located at De Garden which is now one of the most popular place to hang out in Ipoh? Well yea after the opening of Airport, Strawberry moment and even Shabu-Shabu it became 'the hang out spot' in Ipoh :D

Went there with family two weeks back to try out. The food is not bad but I personally think its tad bit pricey than the other Japanese restaurants in Ipoh that serves similar food.

The interior is pretty and they do have the sushi belt as well!

Here are some pictures of the food that I tried :D

This wagyu beef set is awesome! The beef was served in perfection.

I also tried the salmon and nato beans. Salmon was good but the nato beans really got me feeling disgusted when I had too much of them @.@

Toodles! <3

Just the way I am

2010-10-05T10:15:00.000-07:00

I am so addicted to the song 'Just the way you are' by Bruno Mars.

I would cry if someone sings that song to me.

Touches my heart max for sure.

........................if only he tells me that I'm amazing just the way I am...

p/s: I wonder what it feels like having you staring at me with dreamy eyes :) I never had that before.

A random thought: Why do some people like to pretend that they're dumb? =.='

Paintball or Painball?

2010-10-04T06:37:00.000-07:00

I think guys are the most horrible species ever. They claimed that they are easy but in fact they are not. They say girls are difficult but they are way more complicated than girls. They want more they want it perfect and they want everything to go their way! There is no such thing as 'perfect' okay. They all want a dog, a slave and a voice recorder!

Its difficult to act the way others want it and not being yourself. Its difficult to pretend that things are okay when you yourself are not exactly feeling comfortable with the things that are actually happening. Its horrible to always be left doubtful, feelings unexpressed and words unspoken.

Distraught.

Its been so long since I last put up such an emotional post here. I am now less expressive compared to the times I remember when I started blogging where most of my words were my silly rants with vulgar words and screams of joy for the smallest jolly thing that happened in my daily life. Yeah.

Anyway back to the topic. I went for paintball yesterday back in Silibin, Ipoh. It was my first time and undeniable its really really fun when it gets more challenging after a few first trial rounds minus the hot sun and the sweat. Its really about accuracy, the skills to hide yourself and speed! I used to love outdoors but as soon as I left school I did not really go for anymore outdoor activities except swimming and jogging which most of the time is not with my friends. Paintball is definitely what we should do when everyone is back! The more the merrier seriously! I was so excited that I went for paintball till I had to Ping! S about it haha. Can't wait for her to be back!

Its Painball more like it yeah?

I am the lucky one

2010-09-27T06:25:00.000-07:00

I have always been the 'lucky' kid in class since I started schooling..say even before schooling! Nursery maybe? I'm not sure. It is indeed a horrible fact that I am always 'the kid' in class. My name has always been one of the favourite names to be called. The most talkative one, the one who laugh the loudest, the one who sleeps, the one who did not pay attention, the one who did not do homework even? haha. You name it. Well now it even happens in uni. Amazing right? I schhhwear I behave damn well in class now compared to my secondary school times. I seldom talk, I pay attention most of the time and well maybe sometimes I will be busy pressing some gadgets but not to the level where it is noticeable I reckon? Haha.

What I actually wanted to say is..the nostalgic feeling from my school days hit me today and it brought me back to the memories of my school days..the days when I was younger :) The good ol' times with the clan and the family, the endless laughters we used to have from dawn till evening..those are really priceless!

I'm so glad I went for a jog today. It totally made me feel better when the ache in my head went off right away after sweating and the feeling of calories burning in me is really orgasmic. I was so lucky to get back on time because as soon as I reached my hostel entrance it started raining. While I was still jogging the sky darkened and the clouds looked like they were chasing each other and they invited Mr.Thunder along the run. Scary. The wind was so strong that when I was jogging all I could hear was the sound of the wind hitting my eardrum and my ponytail kept swaying to one direction.

The weather is not being friendly these days. It has been raining almost everyday during the evening and has caused me not exercising for almost 3 weeks. Ok not exactly is the weather's fault. I did not work out when I was back in Ipoh for my mid semester break. LOL.

Again I shall promise myself to practice my exercise routine always!

p/s: I miss you mom, and I love you.

The Strawberry Moment!

2010-09-20T02:26:00.000-07:00

My holiday has ended and I think time passes too quickly especially during the holidays!

I wish I have 36 hours a day. With that the time to party will be so much longer.

I'm missing my girlfriends so much!

So yeah I am so relieved that I finally passed up my assignment which was due today and I hardly had enough sleep for the past two days.

You know the feeling when you totally don't have enough sleep, feeling dizzy, feeling like passing out when you think hard or use your brain too much and when you look up at something beyond your eye level and then look down after that the pain strikes in your brain so hard. Yea I have those when I don't get enough sleep.

Two more assignments pending. Screw that.

Strawberry Moment! A nice place to hang out with friends with nice ambiance and quite a variety of wonderful strawberry desserts to be served! Recommended to those who love strawberries [like me!]

Strawberry strudel :)

Passion fruit frosty!

Strawberries crepe with ice cream!

I'm looking forward to try more desserts from there :)

I'm having a sweet tooth lately. Craving so much for desserts and cakes especially.

Bought myself some chocolates from the bangkok trip to pamper myself at home during the holiday. Haha. Fattening yes I know. Shall promise myself to keep up the work outs!

Bendicks' is not bad, Jack Daniels is good but the rum and raisin is totally addictive!!!

Hallelujah

2010-09-16T09:44:00.000-07:00

I was never ever productive at home since forever. Not a single point of time that I am feeling motivated or inspired to study or work things out at home. I guess its just undeniable that this very place is my comfort zone. I can sit here on this very chair for long hours doing whatever and not moving else where.

Sigh. Just the same at this very moment that I'm struggling to get myself motivated and pushing myself so hard to work on my assignment. I am dying to find my hardworking self back that has long gone else where.

Somehow I'll get myself to work things out but not this moment yet sadly because I will never ever do things that will destroy myself. Yes I'm not a risk taker. Perhaps I should learn how to?

I play safe all the time [work wise] and will always be very careful no matter what I do or say [still work wise]. I'm more straight forward when talking to people that are closer and to people that I can trust.

I just came back from Bangkok two days back and it was a really really awesome getaway with my family. We shopped everyday, we drank together, laughed our hearts out and of course had the worst and the best experience on the plane during the same trip itself!

This mid semester break was one of the best one I ever had. Hanging out with the people that I like and spending so much quality time together :)

AH perhaps thats the reason why I'm so slacky I'm having too much fun!

Hanging out with calvin's is always fun and I get a lot of jokes from there. A lot of epic moments too not to forget :)

Now I know why blow job is called blow job and what is a paint job and etc. Very informative of him right? :)

A lil sneak peek from my Bang-cock trip. Period.

Love,

Ciara

2010-09-05T02:55:00.000-07:00

A big big shout out to my dearest and only friend who resembles a hamster so much!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUNICE CHOONG!!

Miss all the good times we had and high school days with you around was so awesome! <3

Can't wait for family reunion again!

Have a blast choongtzeyan!

*HUGS*

Heyo!

2010-08-31T06:13:00.001-07:00

Good evening everyone!

Well I've been so busy with things and everything I couldn't afford to spend my time blogging so hence the LONG hiatus again. My apologies.

I shall put up some random pictures to entertain you :)

With my roomie :) and this is the last picture of me having straight hair :)

Yes this is my new hair! hehehaha :D

with ysy at Mois :) Awesome night with her!

him <3

Can't wait for semester break! Off to Thailand again! wheeeeee~!

and girlsss lets boomboompow! :D

Procrastinator champion?

2010-08-03T11:11:00.000-07:00

Its such a busy week plus bus services in uni has stopped due to the convocation week which will be held until Sunday. Walking to classes seriously is not a problem for me which takes maybe prolly 25 to 40 minutes depending on the location. BUT walking under the giant 'spotlight' is really a big problem. I'll be sweating like holycrap after walking bout 10 minutes :(

There's an assignment to hand in the morning and a solo presentation later in the evening tomorrow. Procrastinating sucks but yet I still repeat my mistakes even though it hit me so badly in the past. Thats life right? Apparently everyone around me behaves the same. HAHA.

I'm supposed to get ready for my presentation right now but I'm just not in the mood so here I am.....blogging.

I had a talk with S today. It made me realize a lot of things happen for a reason and certain things will not happen if we refuse to let it happen [well not that I don't know about this but I'm saying this because I am not the kind that will always say no]. Of course, determination needed. We talk a lot bout life recently I can say..topics differ as we get older? haha OH NO!

Let me talk about a couple of happenings around me recently.

1. I went for Clinique makeover where they had this cooperation with Cleo Magazine and they visit various tertiary education institutions all over Peninsular Malaysia in the month of July. We need to pay RM30 to get our hair done, make up, photo shoot and the best shot will be developed for us at the size of 4R. You can view my facebook for more pictures to have a clearer picture of the event...but most of the pictures are my camwhore pictures=.=' typical Asian I know.

Just a picture to show you the result hehe..and again..more pictures in facebook! :D

2. I spent my weekend in Ipoh again haha. Yea I'm the champion of PBSM(pelajar balik setiap minggu) and I went back just for the sake of going back and not staying in USM. :p My family brought me to Berlin which is newly opened in Greentown. Meantime its full house almost every night I heard. They serve German food like the infamous pork knuckle and German sausage. Food is alright not beyond satisfactory but ambiance is good. Perfect place for drinkers and definitely a place to chill out. They serve a lot of liquor, beer and wine and even champagne. I tried a few German beers and a few cocktails. Cocktails are not recommended personally hahahaha. Should pick any German beer if you wana drink there but I'm not sure which is the best. I realized a lot customers chose Stella Artois.

Here's a picture of the pork knucle. This is half portion. Asparagus salad is not included. We ordered seperately and added on :) The meat is tender and fine but I feel it will be better if the skin could taste better.

I did not opt for German sausage instead I ordered Pork and cheese burger. The pork patties is so damn juicy! No regrets LOL. I shall try German sausage next.

A picture of myself to end this post heee~ excuse the bad lighting please XD

Have a wonderful week ahead you people!

Lots of love from me!

xoxo,

Ciara

Hooray!

2010-07-20T18:47:00.000-07:00

Hello :)

You know sometimes I wonder..why things don't come when you're expecting it to and then it suddenly appear when you have already started to forget about it? That's life ain't it?

Is it me or is it the rest that made me feel that I should quit and step back? Was is my problem?

You know how it feels when something keeps lingering in your mind and it seems impossible for you to reach it? So near..yet so far...

Anyway..

How was your weekend people?

Mine was totally awesome! I spent mine with the prince XD

Well since I don't have class every Friday so I went all the way down to Nilai to meet up with him coz I've decided to go back Ipoh this coming weekend and I've got nothing to do last weekend. This time we didn't go out much coz he's gonna sit for exam soon but it was fun after all. Had whole lot of quality time together! :))))

I'm surprised that someone is actually addicted to anime. Its a big No No to me coz I was never ever ever a fan of anime so it kinda gave me a fright when I had to watch that amount of anime. Crap. Must be influence from M!

lots of love hehe

And we had Italianese for dinner@The Gardens

Awesome Tomato Bruschetta

Its a humongous portion of linguine! omgwtf

Chicken and asparagus risotto

and of course a camwhoring picture of myself :)

Ah yes! My dear brother's birthday was last week and we celebrated his be-earlied birthday the week before in Penang before my semester commenced.

US!! <3

Haha yes I put on make up in Chili's =.= my doinky brother thinks its something worth capturing LOL how silly.

He was just posing haha. Wall up-ing the whole lamb shank? @.@

Mushroom Fajitas

3p!

oooh Greeeeeedy face caught!

The INFAMOUS CHOCOLATE MOLTEN CAKE!!! yummmmmmmmm I can have this like everyday its too addictive!

I think it makes the best birthday cake ever and my brother gave me a HIGH 5 for it!

Don't you think this picture is super cute? hahaha what a happy birthday boy :D

I love you gor! My life is so much more fun with you around! misshh you misshh you!

I tried out Neway today with my friends coz we all don't have class and end up we sang karaoke for almost 6 freggin hours! Like from 1.15pm till 7.05pm! It was really fun haha and I'm so gonna go there again :)

Can't wait go back Ipoh this weekend!

2010-07-19T10:31:00.000-07:00

A BIG SHOUT OUT TO MISS AMY HO

.:~HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETIE~:.

<3>

Love you so much and miss you heapssss! Can't wait to see you again :) SOON OKAY

First day of Second year

2010-07-11T21:47:00.000-07:00

Its first day of school. So excited to meet everyone again :)

I'm a second year junior now!

No more a freshie :)

Woke up sooooo early today and got ready so well to attend class but end up class canceled KNS!

We're having steamboat tonight wheeeee~ I'm so excited! Our dear lil friend from Beijing brought back steamboat soup base all the way from her hometown for us. We have this like quite often coz we are all crazy about steamboat. Well thats because the soup base from China is so damn awesome. Its so spicy and the ingredients in the soup base is so freggin generous.

Gonna shop for steamboat later after lecture :)

My coursemate yiling is my new roommate for this semester! How coincident!

I hope its gonna be fun XD

I miss partying @.@

pfft what was I thinking. Crap. I'm no party girl. Seriously. LOL.

Today was not the best day

2010-07-09T04:33:00.000-07:00

Hi!

Yeah NEW SKIN.

I never thought of changing anything about my blog for the longest time ever but I stumbled upon the new functions blogger is providing and it started to get fun.

Pretty?? I think the colour combination looks so sweet and its like looking at a packet of cotton candy. So pink right. But I like wheeee~

So much for today. Seriously. I woke up at 6am in the morning and rushed back to Ipoh to attend grandpa's funeral which commenced at 10. It was totally not the best day for everyone in the family. Seeing everyone else beside you weeping and their tears rolling down their cheeks uncontrollably..I've never had such a sight before.

Seeing so many of my relatives breaking down is really really wrenching. I can't stop thinking the vision that I had this morning and the crying voices still lingers in my ears.

I'm glad everything went smoothly..but I am worried about grandma. I would really like to know what she has in mind. She hardly spoke anything today. She's too weak to show her emotions. I know she is still strong even though she's already 87 this year. :/

Mummy didn't sleep at all last night :( Today is the first time ever that I see her cry. I have not seen her cry in my entire life. She's one hella strong woman.

I'm leaving to Penang tomorrow. Back to the same lifestyle I had few months back. I have decided and I am not gonna look back! No regrets this time. Not kidding.

OH! I am staying at the 9th floor next semester..wonder what it will be like..staying so high up!

My semester break has been too good and I'm so glad it all went the way I wanted.

I managed to obtain some small achievements and I feel so blessed that I was supported by the people around me unconditionally. Those who have helped me throughout this period of time, THANK YOU SO MUCH. The thing that I didn't manage to do is to meet up with most people. Well there's still time I'll do something about it during the coming weekends!

A cheerful picture to cheer up this sad post.

Towards the end

2010-06-30T10:11:00.001-07:00

Hey people!

Its July now and yeah I last posted something was in May. Pathetic I know.

Life's good during the holidays for me. I'm really enjoying things that happened during this year break. Two and a half months..its a really long holiday huh? Next week will be my last week of holidays. I'm gonna enjoy myself to the max!

I went Vietnam in May with my family and it was really fun. They have a very different culture and a lot of unique things you could encounter there. I visited both Hanoi and Ho Chi Minh city. Hanoi is more underdeveloped compared to Ho Chi Minh city but both is fun! Its nothing similar to the other countries I've visited so far. I'm not in the mood to upload pictures here coz it will take forever to get them uploaded so you could visit my facebook to view them :) Leave a comment or click like if you like any of them alright :)

Just a random thought, If a girl is offered to be paid for sex..do you think the girl should be flattered or feel insulted? haha

And do you know how does it feel to be disappointed again and again? Do you know how it feels when there's high hopes on something or someone and yet you always get disappointed?

It sucks to the max.

Ily

Pulau Redang!!

2010-05-11T06:56:00.000-07:00

Hey there, finally I have the time to blog after so long.
So my final exam was over and I stayed in Penang for two days before heading to Redang Island. The island is so pretty! The water is clear and the sand is so fine and smooth and white. It totally feels awesome to spend a few days in a beautiful island like this! After a month of hard core struggle for my finals, an awesome trip like this is a totally a big reward for myself! I had so much fun with my friends and him in the island. Got to know so many other friends from the trip as well..its good that we know more of each other's friends now. I experienced snorkeling for the first time and it's really a great experience! It totally felt like I'm in another world and its really great swimming along with so many fishes. It may sound silly but its really what I felt..I felt like a fish when I was swimming with the fishes haha :)
I have uploaded quite a number of pictures in my facebook. Check them out and feel free to leave comments alright!
And I shall share some pictures here that I did not upload in facebook:) <3

These are my course mates who joined the rest in kl with me :) Had so much fun with them!

We dropped by Seremban a while before we departed to Redang Island. The siew pao tasted so fresh and good. If to compare with Ipoh's I think the one sold in Ipoh town area is really really not bad at all! They tasted totally like its originated from Seremban!

My favourite underwater picture. Totally feels awesome to swim with fishes! [Again I'm saying it! @.@]

This picture is to show you guys how tanned I got! Look at the picture carefully! My arms are so tanned compared to my torso :(

Love this picture wheeeeeeee~

Breakkie with him after watching sunrise together <3

hahaa

and our last picture before leaving the island.. <3 This is overall an awesome trip! I can't wait for the next to come! After Redang I went back to Penang to pack my stuff back to Ipoh. Spent some time with family in Penang and as usual we eat like whoaa..We had so much food in two days time.

Beef Bacon Burger! Who could resist 'em??

This is an orgasmic Chicken Cordon Bleu..The amount of cheese inside this piece gave me a shock!

Showing only a small portion due to laziness sorry LOL..

I wish I could meet up everyone during these holidays to catch up. Managed to have lunch with the usual girls this noon and it felt good to see each other again :) I'm waiting for our karaoke session in our next meeting! <3

Thats all for now. Oh ya remember to check out my Redang pictures in my facebook okayyy and leave some comments when appropriate haha

love love <3

'Brain food'

2010-04-28T00:40:00.000-07:00

Hello hello. Ciara is so excited now.
Tomorrow she'll be sitting for her last paper. YAAAY!

Okay I'm actually totally stress that I can't feel the stress and I don't have the study mood at all. Tomorrow's paper is not easy tho. Brr~

Anyway during the exam period we had brain food to make sure our minds are working well, well kononnya.

Yeah 'brain food' @.@

Haha McD is having a new set value which doubles up the amount of meat in all burgers. They taste totally awesome with the amount of meat doubled up. I love the Double Fillet-O-Fish so much hoho <3

My friend had Double Big Mac..totally an XXL burger. I can't even bite the normal Big Mac properly..imagine eating this..It would be such a mess =.=

Double McChicken is awesome too! <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_fwjqV3ZFV3w/S9frPiOacnI/AAAAAAAAA8A/NNpIUovqsd8/s1600/DSC01613.JPG">

killer killer

2010-04-22T02:54:00.000-07:00

Okay..3 down now..3 more to go only!
but but but next paper....

ITS THE KILLER PAPER

freggin 15 pages of essay.

Tell me how a human can do it.

What nots

2010-04-21T05:31:00.000-07:00

Time for some updates.
Okay 2 down and 4 more to go. Can't wait!
I'll be going redang next weekend and its totally awesome hahahaha..yes I'm overjoyed

So last week was my study week and no doubt it was a tough time studying non stop from dusk till dawn and struggling everyday after study group to prepare for the next study group. Its pretty motivating when you see people around you studying non stop and the pressure you get is seriously making you unable to relax..not even a bit.

Okay it wasn't as suffering as I described or as you imagined haha..coz we went out to give ourselves a lil escape during that week as well. It will be totally crazy staying in our rooms to study for more than 7 days =.= We didn't even have to go out from our rooms for our meals because we have our dinners delivered on weekdays till our final is over.

So sushi bonanza was it..

And another outing we went was to watch midnight show. Watched Echoes of The Rainbow. I think everyone should totally watch this. They won the Berlin Awards and so many other awards. The story is pretty good quite similar to 'One litre of tears' but its still good. But somehow I think it could be better. Anyway I'm gonna give 9/10 for this movie.

And another outing for dinner in Toilet Bowl again and another movie!

I'm so glad we had these outing if not I will keep eating and eating and eating in my room. I've been munching all the time and I can see my tyres starting to bulge out. Crap.

I shall stop now as I've not studied anything for my paper tomorrow. Its a language paper anyway but still..!!!

I miss Ipoh!

2010-04-07T05:08:00.001-07:00

I miss home so much and I can't wait to go back again this coming weekend.
I had so much food last weekend when I was home and it was totally a bliss to be pampered at home. Of course it feels awesome to drive around too :)

Look!

The famous dim sum in Ipoh haha makes you wana go back for it again and again >.<

This claypot thing is not some normal beef stew..its actually chee cheong fun! Two thumbs up for this! very very scrumptous..the satisfaction from this dish..fuahh totally awesome! LOL mind me coz I've not been eating well in uni o.0

What could be better than a cup of freshly brew white coffee and freshly baked egg tarts for tea time?

My mom brought me to visit this chinese doctor that heals patients using the traditional way. I went just to try out haha since I've not visited any 中医 before since young. She knew whats going on with my body. Amazing!

This is a really nice shot hahahaha omg my expression really swt=.='
I wasn't teasing the doctor but was actually about to show my tongue to her. Haha.

I'll be sitting for my finals in less than two weeks time and yes I still have not started studying. Slap me please.

Aquatic Night 2010

2010-03-24T06:52:00.000-07:00

Meeting provocative people is definitely not something that I will appreciate. Hence the best way is to avoid I reckon. Who doesn't know 'prevention is better than cure'?
Not only provocative people..but those who have thick skin issues really gets on my nerves.

Today is really 'what-a-day' day. Haha if you get what I mean.
Things were up and down..and even left and right. Things are swaying=.=
I have dilemmas right now. Making decision is tough sometimes especially when it totally determines your future with this one small step that you take.

I'm very afraid to be selfish but somehow I always end up being selfish for my own benefit. I can't deny that a lot of times I will put myself before others but there are significantly many times that I sacrifice my needs and desires to fulfill others'. Some which I regret after. How do you actually make decisions? Is it best to opt for the one that will benefit more people? or opt for the decision that will benefit myself the most?
What if the decision does not benefit me at all in my current situation and its all about voluntary and sacrificing?

LG in uni has been sucking a lot of my time and seriously occupied a lot of my time and constrained myself from doing other things. I'm relieved that all the events are over. Well we had this Aquatic dinner in Hardwicke House next to Northem Hotel last saturday night. It was just alright and my department was the busiest of all that night. We had to handle the PA system, make sure the program goes well, we were the game masters, make sure the emcee says the right thing..and bla bla and bla. The best part of the night would be watching our 'tribute' to the seniors who are leaving the corp soon. This time my department made a video for our seniors and we took almost a freggin month to come out with a script and did all the crappy video shootings. It was hella tough when it comes to editing the video!

Oh anyway I danced a bit in the video haha. Did not play much role coz I was the director. Its not much of a good quality video because it was sort of a last minute thing but I'm already satisfied that we could get it done. I have totally no talents in acting and directing so I'm totally out from Film and Broadcasting..I'm going for PR..[yes I'm talking about my major] which I have to decide by this coming Monday. T.T

I'll show a few pictures from that night. There are more in my facebook. Feel free to check out.

All down!

2010-03-12T03:00:00.000-08:00

Yello people :)
I'm so relieved right now! All assignments down!!..but there's one more presentation to go!
Really very relieved haha I am totally overjoyed.

I went to genting the other day with my family to watch 黄子华(wong zi wah in cantonese-in case you can't read chinese) He's totally a joker haha. Its wasn't a singing concert but he came this time as a comedian just like Russell Peters but his show is in cantonese. I totally enjoyed it so much coz I was laughing so much through out the show.
I finally feel it that there's really not much to do in genting except gambling or going to the theme park.
OH I managed to sneak into the casino! How amazing. I was caught the first time but the second time I made it but almost being caught also. >.<

Mom stuffed us with coffee bean

so nostalgic haha..being bullied when mom is not around

Curry in flaming coconut! totally awesome :) Its from the Vietnamese restaurant

and a really scrumptous beef dish from the same restaurant too.

I find this really cute. Custom made car number plate haha.

I'll be in penang this weekend. Feels weird when I don't go back to Ipoh coz thats what I always do on weekends LOL.

Going out for dinner already.
Toodles.

p/s: I want to go melb and hk!

Help

2010-03-03T07:21:00.000-08:00

I need some love.
I need an escape.
I need a break.
I need hug.

ARGH

2010-02-14T08:38:00.000-08:00

I am f*cking dulan on the first day of Chinese New Year and Valentine's Day!
What the F!
and I fell down in front of my house too! ON THE SAME DAY. wtf I've not been falling down since like so long ago but why today?? mcb.
How fantastic.

I don't appreciate prank calls and unnecessary phone calls seriously. Especially when I'm not in the mood to talk! Getting on my nerves already. Too much

@#$%^&%^*^%#$^@#$!@$#$&Y&(*&(^&$#%@#$#^%^*()*&_)&*R^T#$@#$#$&^$%$

Almighty

2010-02-06T20:33:00.000-08:00

Hello readers. I apologize for the long hiatus again. I had a really busy week and seriously I can't imagine how am I able to manage everything prior this week. I'm glad that I finally have the time to sit and type something out. I hardly did anything for myself this week. Running from one place to another getting this and that done, following up stuff. Whoa! That was like the busiest week ever! I totally can't believe how fast the time passed. When you're busy you'll always feel 时间不够用! That is why one week's time seems like just a blink of an eye.

Must be wondering why was I so busy this week right? Let me list them out. I had to prepare for 3 presentations, complete 1 assignment, I am involved in ADWAVE which is one of the final year projects for the final year students of Communication and since I am in the PR and Publicity department I need to call up the press people to get them publish out our press and we had counter duties as well for this to publicize our project to the university students, I worked in a Digi roadshow and it was held in two different locations so I had to travel with Digi people, I am also a member of the Lifeguard Corp in my uni and so coincidentally they are having their general meeting this week also and the fitness test is held yesterday. Totally so wtf. I had no time for training at all so yeah expectedly I failed. So as the consequence I need to go for replacements training as penalty every week for 5 weeks and swim 1.6km in 50 minutes time. wtf wtf!! AND I am the event team member of Kung Fu night which was held last night (saturday) and I had to attend their rehearsals on Monday, Wednesday and Friday-_____-' not to forget I was busy the whole night last night. I guess thats about it...fuh.

Its like everything happened in the same week! But to think about it again, I think its all worth it because I get to know so many friends and even became close to some of them :)

I can't wait to go back Ipoh next week! I bet it will be so fun! haha yes totally will! There are a few that I can't wait to meet when I get back to Ipoh hoho.

I shall share some pictures of the Kung Fu night. It was totally awesome. The adhoc team did such a great job and planned everything really well.

During rehearsal, the backdrop was just being put up

On that night. My muay thai boys haha. I was in charge of the muay thai division.

And the following pictures were taken from the stage side.

40 drummers!

The fluorescent lotus dragon

My muay thai boys performing haha

And some pictures of the Digi roadshow as well :)

I will follow you~~ hahaha..

Will be going to watch my friend's drama performance later. Better be worth it hahaha!
Have a good one everyone!

love love,
Ciara

Funny feelings

2010-01-15T05:57:00.000-08:00

Its totally not a good thing to have funny feelings. It ruins stuff that you have. It confuses you. It makes you feel like everything you do is not the right thing to do. I know a few that feels the same way. Totally horrible right? I knowwwww.....TELL ME ABOUT IT!

How was your Christmas?

2009-12-28T00:15:00.000-08:00

I'm back in uni now and I'm happy to say that I'm starting back my healthy lifestyle again. Compared to my lifestyle in Ipoh it is so much better because in Ipoh I usually sleep really late because I didn't have to worry about waking up early the next morning and I ate so much for my meals back in Ipoh.

I got my results for the previous semester and it was satisfying. Phew. My timetable for this semester is totally horrible! I have class to attend as late as 8.oo pm every Thursday night. How absurd =.= and I have 9.00am class on Mondays and my class ends at 7.00pm on Fridays. Grr..It simply means that I don't have long weekends for this semester :(

New year is here again. Time really flies like woooosh! I'm going back to Ipoh to celebrate new year! I shall have a blast this time since I did not enjoy much the past few new years. Everyone should be like gugugagawoohoo! during new year's celebration coz everyone should have a good start in every year!

My christmas was not bad. As usual there were turkey, lamb, pasta, salad, wine and champagne for lunch at the O'Hara's. I got to know so much about my family history during lunch but its difficult to digest so much information and names at the same time haha =.=
And the night before christmas I went to two parties, one which is not so fun haha. Sorry for being too honest but I wasn't really enjoying my time. Maybe we should do something more fun next year!

Camwhoring has not been my thing since a while ago. But with the christmas hat on who could resist that??? HAHA.

They are off to Langkawi WITHOUT ME :( I don't wana be left out :(

"Dear_____,
I'm so glad I've found you, or I should put it I'm so glad that we know each other now. I never knew that you would acknowledge me. I'm really really very glad that we could know each other much better now. It meant a lot to me when you first talked to me knowing that I finally get the chance to be a part of your life. It feels so warm when I knew that you care. "

Birthday Part 3!

2009-12-27T23:49:00.000-08:00

Its so late to blog about my birthday anymore but I really really wana share this haha.
My awesome friends, Eunice, ChingMun, Sik sik and Nadia baked cupcakes for me. OMG so pretty right?? I din expect them to bake like seriously haha so happy wheeeee~ I can't stop smiling everytime I look at the cupcakes :D

"WE LOVE CIARA" it says haha. Awww I love you all tooooo <3

I totally went awww *heart melts* when I see these cupcakes. :)

Look at the stupid ass trying to ruin almost all of my pictures =.=

I was soooo sooo happy haha thank you again girls. And thank you for the enormous card and presents toooooooo. So sweet of you seriously. :)

Birthday Part 2!

2009-12-14T07:20:00.000-08:00

Today is my 20th birthday!
Did not have a blast just a quiet celebration with him :)

Ok I looked so...stoned zzz

From him :)

Thank you dear <3 love love

Birthday!

2009-12-12T23:31:00.000-08:00

I had a be earlied birthday celebration [which was unexpected] two days back. Thank you so much Vivian and Paik Yen, both of you are such sweethearts to me. Dinner was horrible I'm so sorry for choosing this location =( We shall have a better dinner together soon alright?

Yin yee and I =)

My two wonderful friends. Love you both so much!

Oh the tradition thingy. The birthday girl has to pull out the candles with her mouth

Headed to bar room next. It was really really fun. Glow in the dark party was totally awesome.

Hehehehehehe

Thank you so much for the birthday wishes! You guys are early! Its not even my birthday yet but still thank you so much!
Love love <3

No money no honey

2009-12-04T20:29:00.000-08:00

Hello there [yeah finally, after so long]
I'm so sorry for the hiatus due to laziness.
So now that I'm in Ipoh there's not much to do where I'll finally get my blog updated sooner or later haha. My boredom state is already at peak fyi. I've got NO job. Hence it just simply means no income :(

After my finals I was as relaxed as ever. I did not come back to Ipoh right after it because I had to wait for the Penang Bridge Marathon which was few days later. So shopping it was. Did not manage to get stuff that I wanted tho. Will try again before my next semester commences for sure. Anyway for the marathon I only joined the 10km as a try out plus I had no time at all to train up my stamina for 21km. Seriously my ligamens will tear and my nuts and bolts will just drop off if I ran 21km without any training or whatsoever. Hope I'll be able to join the 21km category next year =)

Most of the people joining the 10km category were practically walking rather than running. Its the 'Fun run' category but it doesn't mean joining for fun and not bothering right? So many of them were just walking and blocking the way...my way! but seriously 'fun run' is really not a nice name for that category. Its so unmotivating! [if this word actually exists] LOL. And I got this free bag from Digi, its pretty ugly. Seriously. Boy I sound so ungrateful. I should appreciate, its a free gift! Overall it was fun actually and its something worth doing again.

Last weekend I was in Kl. Not for fun actually.
Did a bit of shopping and this and that like what other people usually do when they are in KL.

This was taken in Pavilion. Pretty ain't it?

Had teppanyaki and it was good. Salmon is awesome and thats our lamb too.

Jap food in 1U

And last Saturday night I was in The Curve, met up with Miss Chin Pot Pot after like 496709347192658945 years. That little biatch is still as nonsensical as ever HAHA. After that I went to the library. Yeah to 'study'. LOL

Environment was good. I would give it a 8, two points minus for the huge ass tables and chairs which made everyone so difficult to move about during peak hour or else it'll be a superb place to hang out and you know... 'study'?

I've not camwhored for the longest time ever! I don't have any decent recent picture of myself. I was in exam trauma and I've been hiding from the camera ever since. Geez this shall end. I have to be normal.

I was eyeing on colour lenses the whole night yesterday. IMHO it sucks emotions out of people's eyes. Like seriouslyyyyy....BUT BUT but...its so pretty I just can't help it. Sigh~

p/s: I need a job. Someone please hire me.

German week!

2009-10-27T04:33:00.000-07:00

I know this is so outdated but I still want to share my experience in the German week in my uni two weeks back :) It was fun and it was BIG! The German embassy KL sent a few representatives to USM to promote themselves. Not to forget the German Ambassador of Malaysia came too for the opening ceremony. And of course there were so many German companies like Qcells, SGL and etc. were there to promote and recruit new staff. They encouraged us to work for them as interns during our semester break. I got quite a number of phamplets and booklets and free gifts such as lanyard, notebooks, and so much information about studying and working in Germany. Man they are really giving a lot of oppurtunity to us students. I registered myself in one company where they recruit new workers from time to time and they will keep me updated monthly on the vacancies that are available in their company. Hence as soon as graduation is near they will inform those who have registered on the vacancy that is suitable for us. At least that was what I was told. I'm not sure myself how genuine the information is but..haha who knows? you know...

So, there was Volks Wagen car show as I mentioned in my previous posts and German food was sold too. My duty was to be the student ambassador and also to sell food. The cakes were really good. I tried every flavour that was available! I'm too embarrassed to tell how much cake I had for that particular week =( Coincidentally it was my neighbour's birthday that week and I had birthday cake too =.=' Geez...

OK let me name them from bottom left, clockwise- Plum crumble, Chocolate cake, Chocolate cheese cake, also chocolate cheese cake, German cheese cake, apple cake, coffee and walnut strudel, carrot walnut cake and German pretzels!

They were so nice to let us test drive the cars. I tested the VW EOS OMG I tell you it has the wow factor! and I tested the beetle too haha.

This is the VW EOS :)

and me test driving EOS!

One more step.

2009-10-19T10:21:00.000-07:00

Why can't I just overcome that fear?

Sigh..

Its too embarrassing and disappointing.

Wish I could do better and have more guts.

I never felt so fearful before in my entire life but its actually just something that I could do by just closing my eyes.

All I need is just one more step and the huge courage to take that step.

Just one more step.

730!

2009-10-19T01:23:00.000-07:00

Celebrated anniversary in Poppy and it was really fun!
I had an awesome weekend <3
Love you dear. Thank you so much for everything.

p/s: Can't wait to see you again SOON!

2009-10-09T19:07:00.000-07:00

Again the velvet sky is telling me its gonna rain again today. Its October of course its the raining month.
It's gonna be a seriously hectic week for me. I'll be busy with my assignments, geez 3 more to go and yet exam is so soon! The amount of chapters that I need to read will drown me T.T

Oh! I just recently found out that a long lost friend whom I adore really much is in the same university as I do OMG I'm so excited HAHA!

And I'll be heading to watch theater again in 5. Not excited bout this at all =.='

Quickie!

2009-10-05T23:22:00.000-07:00

OK here's a quickie~

Oh man I totally forgot to post my bali trip pictures here. Haha. You guys can see part of it in my facebook :) feel free to leave comments alright.

Well can't blame me because I've been really busy lately.
Busy with assignments, prior to that were presentations. Plus I have training EVERYDAY~!
My training is eating up a lot of my time seriously but I chose to commit to it so yeah I can't give up!
Mock test is next Monday yikes >.< I'm so not ready and there are some events I am not able to do yet. Brr~
Too bad that I don't have much time to spend in Ipoh or else my gor gor could teach me everything.

I managed to go back Ipoh for exactly 24 hours last weekend to celebrate mid-autumn festival with my family. It was really nice to celebrate festivals with family members. Ahh too bad again it rained this year. Without fail actually every year it'll drizzle a bit in the evening just to wet the floor so that you can't light up your lanterns and candles properly -__________-'
I should have a very nice picture of a tree with a lot of lanterns hanged onto it but the rain ruined it. Ish.

This little menace on the left kept stealing food from the table when its not ready to be served yet. Haha..he was as fast as a rat! and was as greedy as a puppy LMAO

How did you guys celebrate your mooncake festival? Hope you enjoyed it :)

By the way! Next week is Octoberfeast! Since I'm a German class student I have to duty for the week in my uni. Its gonna be fun I hope! We're selling German style coffee, cakes, German sausages, croissants, juices imported from Germany and sanwiches. There will be a VolksWagen car show too. Our duty will be counted as our German assignment ROFL. How nice isn't it?

Later got training again T______________T
Very tiring wehh...at least 1k a day.
I've been drinking pool water till bo feel already. No choice because when I tow my victim its quite difficult to control myself from not drinking water.

p/s: Bis nächste Woche lieber!!! Bussi!