Sick

I posted a new post yesterday and its gone. I'm very sure I published it but its really gone now. What happened?

Sigh. I had one of the worst days ever. I was fuck emotional the whole day.

So emotional that I felt like breaking down every single minute =/

But I couldn't when I was out and was working. Now that I'm alone...I just can't help it T.T

I have too many passive people around me which is really sad. I love to be around enthusiastic people and bubbly people who loves to talk as much as I do and like to share things. But when people around you are passive in a sense that they are close to you, but refuse to take part in things that you want to do with them together and are always closing ears to open conversations or folding arms to avoid becoming the one to initiate. Its really irritating and when that happens their sincerity becomes really ironic when they say "Lets do this or that" or "I wanna do this or that" but those are merely just words without meanings and are virtual wills. I don't like that!

I'm sick of being the backbone and I'm sick of initiating every time. I'm tired of being aggressive all the time.

Things have changed but I am living in denial. Why?

Now it seems that I am asking too much..I talk too much..I am more defensive..I am naggy whiny and a joy killer. Why it has become like this? and why when I am like this the listener often shut ears and walk off.

I'm no more the priority.

I'm no more the reason of everything that happens.

I'm no more the shoulder to lie on.

I'm no more the comfort zone...isn't it?

I can't believe I still want this after all that I've been through. FML!

On a brighter note, I celebrated Mother's Day with mom day after I got back from KL coz I was in KL during that weekend =/ *guilty* so lunch date with mama dearest it was!

bad lighting =/ but it wasn't burnt anyway haha. Lamb ribs-half slab.

ceasar salad.

Supermom and I!

Lets just wish for a better day tomorrow.

Comm Night!

I can't help it but I'm feeling so lazy today. It is totally due to the super long day I had yesterday! I don't feel like doing anything at all today and don't feel like going anywhere at all. Ahh The Lazy Song suits me so well at the moment.

So, Communication Night was last night and hell it was such a long day yesterday! Like seriously... I went 8am class and then straight to Evergreen Hotel hotel in the noon right after I packed up and showered. The setting up and rehearsal went on up till 5pm then everyone started busy getting ready. The dinner went on and everything went on as planned and gosh I'm so glad everything went pretty smoothly. There are a bit of technical errors here and there but overall everything was alright and under control!

I was so glad to hear the feedbacks from lecturers and the seniors, it seems that everything was good! From good food, good environment to good job! It was seriously a big relieve for us when it was over.

I don't have many pictures with me yet but will post more when I got them. Promise :)

Here's a few for sneak peek :D

Here's me getting ready :)

and me after getting my hair and make up done.

The stage, which was the only stage made of glass in Penang.

And here's a picture of me and few of my favourite people in uni! :D

Everyday should be like Valentine's Day

14th February- A day where every couple would celebrate their love with their loved ones.

I think that love should be celebrated every single day. Not only once a year. The world would be so much more wonderful if everyone makes their partner feel special everyday and not just that one particular day of the year. But of course its not quite possible to make it every single day but most of the days perhaps? I'm sure every girl want to feel special always. I'm no exceptional :)

Happy Valentine's Day to you again boo. Even though its not Valentine's Day anymore but I won't mind celebrating our love every single day :)

I was in KL again for the weekend.

Went to Luna Bar to chill and to celebrate Moji's birthday. It was not bad but most of them said they prefer Sky Bar better.

We were sitting on the pool side and the alter was the famous place where FHM girls did their magazine shooting. The cylinder space which has blue lights is the DJ console with a buff DJ inside hee :)

You can also see the Petronas Twin Towers' peak from here. But sadly the lights will be off 12am everyday so you could only enjoy the bright scene of the skyscraper till 12 am =/

We visited Seremban as well. We drove all the way there just to have the Hakka Mee for lunch actually. It was really awesome. So sinfully tasty and its the 'you-will-totally-ask-for-more' thing! I would rate it 10/10. So sorry I forgot the name of the shop. Publicity fail.

After lunch, the Seremban guys brought us to buy their famous Siew Pao. Little did I know the cheese tart was the bomb! Haha. It was one of the best cheese tarts I've tried. Its a baked cheese tart and it was freshly baked when I had it. So orgasmic!

The fluffy cream cheese on top with the runny blueberry filling and the crispy and aromatic pastry base. Yumm!

I'm such a sucker for cheese tarts. Wtf.

I shall end this post with a picture of myself. Its been so long since I last camwhored.

Here's to all of you:

May everyday will be like Valentine's Day to all of you :)

Make your loved one feel special and you will feel special yourself too.

Love,

Ciara

Happy Chinese New Year no?

I'm finally back in cyber space. I have been away for more than a week since I left Penang back to Ipoh for Chinese New Year. How was your Chinese New Year?

Hope all of you had a jolly one. 9 out of 10 Chinese New Year wishes and blessings commonly sounded like 'Happy Chinese New Year!' no matter who is it for. I got a lot of those but this year is a bit different. I heard a few 'Happy Rabbit New Year!' and what not.

Well...my Chinese New Year wasn't that happy after all.

Quite a number of unfortunate incidents happened which kills the Happy-Chinese-New-Year mood. I pray it will all end by now. Seriously.

I had fever twice in a week which caused me to have to opt for injection so that I could recover faster. Not only fever, cough and flu came too.

Then the day before CNY eve the car got kissed by another car which totally freaked us out because it was parked near us along the road side and we were just having a quick dinner. That brilliant culprit 'accidentally' bumped onto the car that was parked behind our car. Hence the car behind rolled towards our car and kissed it hard. Wtf.

Then, grandma was admitted to the hospital due to stroke. This totally broke my heart into pieces. I am so freggin worried especially when I see her feeling so weak, gasping for air and trying so hard to move. Its too heart wrenching.

And on the third day of Chinese New Year my brother went out with his friends and came back with his car's rear glass all shattered. Wtf. The best part is nobody knew how it happened.

Now you see know why its not that happy after all. But of course overall it was still a good one. Who would say a season to get red packets and continuous gatherings with friends and family as a bad one right?

I am missing everyone back in Ipoh already. Especially my mom and my super cute nephews and nieces.

A decent group picture of us after so long!Priceless! :D

Check out Amy's toes and mine! haha :D

Wheeeee~ <3

In dilemma now to decide where should I be this weekend. :/

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAWRENT!

A shout out to the *ahem* cutest thing on planet *cough cough*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAWRENT CHEONG!

I've decided to put this picture up because its the one and ONLY picture with a cute pose of you which I have haha. You're hardly pose like this so yeah I should show everyone this picture of yours :D

Have a wonderful 23rd Birthday sweetheart!

May you grow wiser but not older! :D

Lots of LOVE from me!

This is a very memorable picture for me. I will always remember the day this picture was taken :)

And sweetheart, THANK YOU again for the self-made cake you made for me. Its the very first I ever received! :) Its the best cake I've ever had.

Happy Happy Birthday again big boy!

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas everyone!
With love all the way from melbourne! :D

21!

I'm finally 21!

So that gives me a legal pass to everything and there won't be any cases of underage for me anymore! :D

This reminds me a lot a lot of being kicked out from the casino and being checked on my id in front of clubs entrances =/

But now hooray to the legal pass!

Ok don't judge me I'm not exactly happy about being 21 just because I can enter any clubs or casino legally. But turning 21 is really something different for me. I'm like entering a new phase of life and hopefully its the turning point of life. Of course to turn to a better direction towards the light that shines from happiness and joy.

In my previous post it was my birthday celebration part 1. Erm...I have part 2 and part 3 but I couldn't blog bout it because the pictures were not with me. I'm such a failure in blogging =.=' hahaha but anyway I will try my best to update bout the celebrations as soon as I can! Part 2 was a sweet outing of movie, cakes, pizza, clubbing and cake again! Part 3 was a small dinner party in my house with a few special people :D This year I had the longest celebration ever! I've never had so many celebrations before >.<

Thank you so much to my awesome girlfriends who made all these happen. Its too long to list out so you should know who you are! I love you girls! <3

Lots of love,

Ciara

21st Birthday Part 1

I'm still overjoyed over Monday where my wonderful girlfriends came down to Ipoh to celebrate my be-earlied birthday with me. Its too early I know but Jane had to leave to Penang tomorrow already thats why. I'm totally in a birthday mood already now!

It was nothing much but the outing was really really sweet. Its been so long I had such outing in Ipoh already since my high school girlfriends left Ipoh. I felt like a high school girl again.

We had lunch at my favourite place for custard, watched 'Due Date' [highly recommended because it is so farking hilarious! I laughed so hard in the cinema =.=' and its not only me okay] We then had dinner in Secret Garden [its now one of the popular hang out places in Ipoh to chill and have tea. The environment is good but the food is tad bit bland for me, I would prefer Brewster's if its for food]

Some shots of me with the surprise birthday cake :D

I teared when they sang me birthday songs. Yeah songS you didn't get me wrong they sang it in three different languages haha but it was too touching I couldn't help myself from tearing. They all came so far to Ipoh just to do this for me. How wonderful isn't it?

On a random note, there is a box in my house where my mom simply used it to put some junks and there are new born baby kittens in it! Its been a few days already and they are now furry but still so tiny >.<

Look at them! eeeek >.<

Was out again with my dearest girls today. It was such a tragic day @.@ haha.

A and J, you left a permanent mark on me. I will keep this gift forever! I love you girls! Muaxxx!

xoxo,

Ciara

Of Harry Potter and Birthday Celebration!

Since my next paper is next Wednesday, we decided to slack a bit after yesterday's paper.

Hence we went for Harry Potter! which made us all Happy Potters! :D

The movie was not bad but at certain parts I think its a bit too draggy but overall its still fine. Emma Watson is turning into such a pretty lady and she looked good throughout the whole movie. Especially the very first scene of her and the scene when she was leaving her house :D

Before movie we went for dinner at TGI Friday in conjunction of my roommate's birthday which falls on the 21st of November which is tomorrow :)

We had a great time celebrating her birthday and even though there were only 5 of us but it felt so merry during dinner. TGI Friday's staff were so sporting and wonderful. They have great manners and their service was good.

Unfortunately one of the staff ruined our surprise celebration [my roommate did not expect us to celebrate for her that early]. He came over and asked "Excuse me, you have two cakes with us, so you would like both to come together after meal or you want it before meal?" I was totally stunned and I glared at him! He saw me glaring and he was surprised because he didn't realize he did a big mistake =.=' Too ridiculous. That is why I wouldn't say that their service was flawless. Haha!

Dinner was fine but it could be better. As usual I still think that the meat that they serve are pretty dry. Especially chicken breast. But the pasta was good! I actually had penne and I think its still good in spite of the dislikeness I have for penne. I will usually go for fettucine, spaghetti or macaroni.

Southwest Mac and Cheese.

Okay I was seriously expecting macaroni to be served instead of penne. I even asked the waitress "Are you sure this is Southwest Mac and Cheese?" and she said YES to my surprise. Why can't they put Penne and Cheese instead? But it was also partially my fault for not reading the dish description carefully before ordering haha.

Jack Daniel's Chicken.

As mentioned above I think the meat is tad bit too dry for my liking.

Jack Daniel's Burger.

Awesome piece of bacon! :D

After dinner, TGI staffs made my roommate stood on the chair and she had to sing in front of everyone with a bottle of ketchup pretending its a microphone. Haha and after singing they all rapped her a Birthday song. It was so cute and fun! So after the song she had to close her eyes make a wish for a minute and while she was making a wish they put both cakes bout a metre away and she had to blow off the candle from where she stood! That moment was really funny and she took so long to blow off the candles. Then the staffs again rapped another song for her. Its really loud and practically the whole restaurant was looking towards us.

Roommie pulling off candles from the cake with her mouth :)

The happy birthday girl!

A group picture of us.

Love you girls! <3

p/s: Excuse the horrible quality. I've already tried my best to edit it to be the best visible colour. The original picture looks far worse than this. =/

Shall get back to study already!

xoxo,

Ciara

Christmas Eve

Its CHRISTMAS EVE! yyyyeeeeaaaahhhh!!
Makes me sing 'I'm dreaming of a White Christmas...just like the ones I used to know....where treetops glisten...and children listen...to hear sleigh bells in the snow~'
or maybe...'all I want for Christmas is youuuuu~.....'
and even...'On the first day of Christmas my true love gave to me..a partridge on a pear tree~!'

haha...I'm so in the mood =p
Christmas carols been playing since I woke up..


Christmas tree at home...which is lack of ornaments...haha but it has ribbons all over the tree and I tied them up yo! not easy I tell you..

Oh ya I remembered something...I spoke chinese to someone who doesn't yesterday...how ugly =( why on earth I will change to speak chinese in all of a sudden -_________-' but shame on that fella he's a chinese and he doesn't speak chinese at all...not even able to understand a word that I said...and the indian girl next to her actually translated for him oh wtf.....did the world just turn up side down? *scratches head*

I can't decide what to wear for tonight...tomorrow..and the day after tomorrow.....I wana go shopping!

Three things that I'm grateful of for today:-
1. I'm grateful that I still love my hair.
2. I'm grateful that today is Christmas Eve.
2. I'm grateful that tomorrow is Christmas.