What would we be now if I wasn't there the day I met you. Will we even end up like this if I didn't make a move or even gave in. I am doubting my decision. I doubt my feelings. I don't know who I can trust now. I am just so helpless. I've never felt this way for such a long time. Everything seem to be in a mess and nothing feels right. Screw that. FML moment. I need an exit.